03-14-2019, 01:05 AM
Well, I think it is time for another update
I'm currently on my second rest day of my third cycle on this sub. Its been interesting. I noticed at the beginning I was noticing results but then for about 2 weeks it felt like I was trying to fight it but then on the third day of my third cycle something happened. I woke up and something just clicked as it were. It was like I was willing to give up a lot of things that were holding me back and just move on from them. I noticed that day I was really proactive and by tomorrow, if things go right, I should be able to be down to only 10 classes until I graduate hopefully. I took a look at the list of classes I have left to graduate after these and besides one the rest are pretty easy. The one I'm worried about is applied Algebra. I can do math but it is sort of a "drag" on me to do so. Luckily for me I found out the pretest is exactly like the final test except for the numbers for the problems are changed. That might give me some sort of advantage I guess.
The "improve your love life" module is still being executed a lot. At the beginning, like with the filipina chick from last year, I started to feel very uncomfortable with these "loving" feelings but now I'm starting to feel a lot more comfortable with having them. She usually wants to talk at least once each day and I do look forward to contacting her everyday whether through text or voice call. This is different with the filipina chick from last year. With her I was proactive when I was over there but due to her work schedule and the time zone difference things started to get strained and I was not nearly contact her as much as I should have which probably led to the relationship ending. I am happy with this though since I found someone even better and someone who is definitely ok with me having 3 other women on the side. If all goes to plan I should hopefully be meeting her even sooner than June. It just all depends on if I get finish with my studies soon enough and then get amount of my tuition refunded.
The other thing that has been on my mind recently is what I'm going to study in September when I am able to enroll again. I think the happiness program has something to do with this and its trying to make me pick something that will be financially stable and make me in the long term happy. As of right now I have 3 options: BS in Software development, MBA, or Masters in ESL. If I get the software development degree I could work in Dubai, work from home (which pays pretty well with American level salaries) or even work in the Philippines since a guy I encourage to go there is working for a guy who might be looking for a third person. If I go for a MBA my main place to work will have to be Dubai. If I go with the Masters in ESL then I can work in several different countries at the university level. Saudi Arabia is one of the bests place to work (4k a month) and the pay is tax free. I could also sign up for online courses teaching kids in China for decent pay if I get the right amount of hours in every week.
Right now I haven't decided yet. I think by September, after teaching in Korea for a few months, I will have a better idea of what I want to do. If I enjoy teaching then I will pursue that. In the mean time I do still have a beginner software education program I have udemy that I can watch to get a better Idea if I want to do programming instead. Speaking of work though I did find out some good news. It turns out there are private companies in Korea that work with the public school system that will hire people for the public school system if they have shortages during the off seasons. I'm quite happy about this seeing as I would rather work with the public school system than with the private after school programs since they have better hours and benefits. I also got "lucky" in that I found out that if I got married to this Indonesian women that it would be very easy and fast to get a visa for her to join me over there. On top of that they recently changed the laws so that those visa holders can also work with the governments permission so she can send money home to her family if she wants. Things seem to be getting better and better and new opportunities seem to be presenting themselves.
Lastly, I am still talking to the one filipina chick that I let go. Even though she has said she is sorry (for the jealousy she showed one particular time) I am still skeptical to a high degree. Part of me is willing to give her another chance but take it more slowly though on the other hand a deep part of me is saying not to do that. I'm starting to understand what that part of me wanting to give her another chance is though. Its fear. In particular its the fear of failure. When analyzing why I felt this way I was reminded I have had this fear for years. In this case me breaking off all contact and just being done with it would be to me like admitting that the relationship is over and that I failed. I just really hate admitting failure even though there is a time when you should cut your loses. Anyway, this is something I'm going to have to work on and hopefully the sub helps me with that aspect.
One last thing I should mention is that true to my original plan I will keep with this sub, at least until I finish my studies. By that time if UMS is out I will go on that but if it isn't then I might hop back onto DMSI again since it should work out pretty well in the culture in Korea I think. It would probably help with my relationship with the Indonesian chick still but also it might also help me maybe get a second girl in Korea possibly. While I was typing this out I just realize something as well. I have taken note of those things I have mentioned in this post but other than that I haven't really been focusing on whether the sub has been working this whole time or not. I haven't been doing my usual over-analyzing and looking for results like I used to do. I find that in of itself is probably good. I do feel like at times I was looking too much for results all the time. Anyway, that is about all for now that I can report. I will probably report again in a week or 2. Take care all!
I'm currently on my second rest day of my third cycle on this sub. Its been interesting. I noticed at the beginning I was noticing results but then for about 2 weeks it felt like I was trying to fight it but then on the third day of my third cycle something happened. I woke up and something just clicked as it were. It was like I was willing to give up a lot of things that were holding me back and just move on from them. I noticed that day I was really proactive and by tomorrow, if things go right, I should be able to be down to only 10 classes until I graduate hopefully. I took a look at the list of classes I have left to graduate after these and besides one the rest are pretty easy. The one I'm worried about is applied Algebra. I can do math but it is sort of a "drag" on me to do so. Luckily for me I found out the pretest is exactly like the final test except for the numbers for the problems are changed. That might give me some sort of advantage I guess.
The "improve your love life" module is still being executed a lot. At the beginning, like with the filipina chick from last year, I started to feel very uncomfortable with these "loving" feelings but now I'm starting to feel a lot more comfortable with having them. She usually wants to talk at least once each day and I do look forward to contacting her everyday whether through text or voice call. This is different with the filipina chick from last year. With her I was proactive when I was over there but due to her work schedule and the time zone difference things started to get strained and I was not nearly contact her as much as I should have which probably led to the relationship ending. I am happy with this though since I found someone even better and someone who is definitely ok with me having 3 other women on the side. If all goes to plan I should hopefully be meeting her even sooner than June. It just all depends on if I get finish with my studies soon enough and then get amount of my tuition refunded.
The other thing that has been on my mind recently is what I'm going to study in September when I am able to enroll again. I think the happiness program has something to do with this and its trying to make me pick something that will be financially stable and make me in the long term happy. As of right now I have 3 options: BS in Software development, MBA, or Masters in ESL. If I get the software development degree I could work in Dubai, work from home (which pays pretty well with American level salaries) or even work in the Philippines since a guy I encourage to go there is working for a guy who might be looking for a third person. If I go for a MBA my main place to work will have to be Dubai. If I go with the Masters in ESL then I can work in several different countries at the university level. Saudi Arabia is one of the bests place to work (4k a month) and the pay is tax free. I could also sign up for online courses teaching kids in China for decent pay if I get the right amount of hours in every week.
Right now I haven't decided yet. I think by September, after teaching in Korea for a few months, I will have a better idea of what I want to do. If I enjoy teaching then I will pursue that. In the mean time I do still have a beginner software education program I have udemy that I can watch to get a better Idea if I want to do programming instead. Speaking of work though I did find out some good news. It turns out there are private companies in Korea that work with the public school system that will hire people for the public school system if they have shortages during the off seasons. I'm quite happy about this seeing as I would rather work with the public school system than with the private after school programs since they have better hours and benefits. I also got "lucky" in that I found out that if I got married to this Indonesian women that it would be very easy and fast to get a visa for her to join me over there. On top of that they recently changed the laws so that those visa holders can also work with the governments permission so she can send money home to her family if she wants. Things seem to be getting better and better and new opportunities seem to be presenting themselves.
Lastly, I am still talking to the one filipina chick that I let go. Even though she has said she is sorry (for the jealousy she showed one particular time) I am still skeptical to a high degree. Part of me is willing to give her another chance but take it more slowly though on the other hand a deep part of me is saying not to do that. I'm starting to understand what that part of me wanting to give her another chance is though. Its fear. In particular its the fear of failure. When analyzing why I felt this way I was reminded I have had this fear for years. In this case me breaking off all contact and just being done with it would be to me like admitting that the relationship is over and that I failed. I just really hate admitting failure even though there is a time when you should cut your loses. Anyway, this is something I'm going to have to work on and hopefully the sub helps me with that aspect.
One last thing I should mention is that true to my original plan I will keep with this sub, at least until I finish my studies. By that time if UMS is out I will go on that but if it isn't then I might hop back onto DMSI again since it should work out pretty well in the culture in Korea I think. It would probably help with my relationship with the Indonesian chick still but also it might also help me maybe get a second girl in Korea possibly. While I was typing this out I just realize something as well. I have taken note of those things I have mentioned in this post but other than that I haven't really been focusing on whether the sub has been working this whole time or not. I haven't been doing my usual over-analyzing and looking for results like I used to do. I find that in of itself is probably good. I do feel like at times I was looking too much for results all the time. Anyway, that is about all for now that I can report. I will probably report again in a week or 2. Take care all!
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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