01-05-2019, 12:51 AM
Kind of an update but also probably for me to vent. Hopefully running the sub will help with this pain I'm feeling right now when I get to my loops.
Well, I was talking to one other women from the Philippines and somehow we got on the subject of the chick I had first seen and I had planned on maybe marrying (Since there is no "divorce rape" over there). For background info about 3 weeks ago I informed her that I was coming back and she said she would visit as friends if she had time off from her job. We talked and I had mentioned how I had met someone else and she said she was happy for me. I sent her another message to me afterwards but she never replied. Over the next few days I finally sent the message "So I guess we aren't talking anymore?" of which she read but never replied to.
Back to the present the women I'm talking to now said that I should probably video call her and I thought I should just do so as well so I can at least get some kind of closure if she really doesn't want to talk anymore. When I video call her I catch something that just sends me to being Angry and hurt at the same time though it does answer my question. Her video call picture was of her with some other black guy holding each other. Guess I had just been replaced (which at his point I think she is one of those fetish asian women) and therefore instead of remaining friends like she had mentioned she just straight up ignored me now.
Its not the fact that she found someone else that really hurts the most. Its the fact that she didn't just reply to me saying for example, "Hey I found someone else and I don't think it would be appropriate for me to keep talking to you". At least with that I could understand and get some sort of closure but she just went with the ignore option. This is the exact same way she acted when we broke up. She just ignored me for like 2-3 weeks or gave me one word replies. It wasn't until I confronted her about avoiding and ignoring me she finally came clean about it and she was the one that said to remain "friends" in the first place. Seems like she wasn't honest about that either. I know this is a lot but feel like I need to vent somewhat.
I'm just so angry and distraught right now. Funny enough I feel more now than I did during the actual break up.
Well, I was talking to one other women from the Philippines and somehow we got on the subject of the chick I had first seen and I had planned on maybe marrying (Since there is no "divorce rape" over there). For background info about 3 weeks ago I informed her that I was coming back and she said she would visit as friends if she had time off from her job. We talked and I had mentioned how I had met someone else and she said she was happy for me. I sent her another message to me afterwards but she never replied. Over the next few days I finally sent the message "So I guess we aren't talking anymore?" of which she read but never replied to.
Back to the present the women I'm talking to now said that I should probably video call her and I thought I should just do so as well so I can at least get some kind of closure if she really doesn't want to talk anymore. When I video call her I catch something that just sends me to being Angry and hurt at the same time though it does answer my question. Her video call picture was of her with some other black guy holding each other. Guess I had just been replaced (which at his point I think she is one of those fetish asian women) and therefore instead of remaining friends like she had mentioned she just straight up ignored me now.
Its not the fact that she found someone else that really hurts the most. Its the fact that she didn't just reply to me saying for example, "Hey I found someone else and I don't think it would be appropriate for me to keep talking to you". At least with that I could understand and get some sort of closure but she just went with the ignore option. This is the exact same way she acted when we broke up. She just ignored me for like 2-3 weeks or gave me one word replies. It wasn't until I confronted her about avoiding and ignoring me she finally came clean about it and she was the one that said to remain "friends" in the first place. Seems like she wasn't honest about that either. I know this is a lot but feel like I need to vent somewhat.
I'm just so angry and distraught right now. Funny enough I feel more now than I did during the actual break up.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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