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Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal - DarthXedonias - 05-30-2016
Anyway, been on EPHRA 2.0 for a while now and recently had a major breakthrough with a Healing session/Experiment I ran. Gave me really decent results. The abbreviation "Experimental" in this journals title has nothing to do with not following the instructions. Just wanted to make that clear. Anyway, Just wanted to get this Thread up for now but will update it with the details once I get back from work. Take care people!
Update: Ok, I actually got off early from work and am ready to write this. I wasn't going to write anything about this until like a month and a half from now but I've been seeing some curious insights happen. I've even thought not to share any of this given some of the content as you will see but Its been so great over this last week that I wanted to share and also wanted to be complete honest. This will be a very long post so bare with. Also, I want to give a very big disclaimer: By writing this I am not trying to promote or encourage people to use certain drugs that "may" be illegal in your country of residence. I know we have a big amount of members who are from Europe where this certain drug is not illegal in many places but since we still have members in places where it is I wanted to give that disclaimer. On top of that I will not be naming the drug by name, I will simply refer to it by the letter "M" even though by some of my descriptions some of you probably will have figured it out anyway. It will remain that way unless either Ben or Shannon says its ok and doesn't go against any rules to mention the name publicly. Though if People PM me I probably won't be as resistant to divulging that information.
As many of you know that have read my first AM6 journal, I have PTSD that I developed while in the military. I believe I had a much, much lighter version of it before I joined but while in it went "fullblown" you could say. Of course when I got discharged they put it under "adjustment disorder" even though they knew about the nightmares, the suicidal thoughts, the depression, and the sudden outbursts that are characteristic of having this mental disorder. To give you an idea of how this goes is this, someone gets a mental disorder, such as PTSD, while in the military. "Usually", though not always, the people in charge try to discharge you under adjustment disorder because when its labeled as adjustment disorder this means the government doesn't have to pay you medical benefits to try and "fix" you. Basically, the government uses you but if you get mentally "broken" somehow it tosses you away like a piece of trash and doesn't want to pay to have "fix" the damage it did to you.
Either way, I could have disputed that designation after I had gotten out and found out what I 'really" had. The thing that stopped me was the fact that the VA's idea of fixing people with PTSD is to keep rolling them off/on different types of anti-depressants. This was something I didn't want, not to mention I had already noticed and heard about how many people say the anti-depressants just "numb" the pain and even make you have a host of other negative issues. Anyway, fast forward to EPHRA 2.0, which I felt was helping to a degree but even then I noticed that I was getting lots of resistance to it like I was getting to 1.0 even though it was trying to be much "gentler" in its approach to healing. I did notice one thing that I'm pretty certain was very attributable to EPHRA 2.0. I felt like the O.E. in EPHRA 2.0 was pushing me to find a cure to my PTSD. I had looked up ways to do this before but while on EPHRA 2.0 I was pushed very hard and was motivated to get this cured.
I ended up trying a natural herb from west africa with certain psychedelic effects at first. My mind was clear for the first day but slowly but surely it went back to its usual PTSD self. I tried Nootroptics next to see if it would have any benefit along with making EPHRA 2.0 better at clearing out the crap in my mind that was on repeat. Besides a very "slight" change in the way I wasn't as drained from social interactions I didn't really notice anything even though I was taking a pretty good cocktail. Now to get to "M". I had read about "M" being used in a clinical trial to cure 85% of the participants of their PTSD. Apparently this happened many times in the different trials that this organization performed. Right now this company is trying to get "M" legalized in the U.S. for medical uses sometime in 2018 and by the latest of 2021 (These were FDA approved trials). I had read these things for months before but wasn't able to procure "M" until recently from a online source.
Anyway, the trials were in conjunction with psychotherapy sessions. Regular sessions were done once every week and "M" assisted sessions were done once a month (usually 1 to 2 "M" assisted sessions per trial with getting feed back 3 years later). Since I didn't have much faith in psychological sessions (done them before to no affect) and found Shannon's subs to be more potent in that area I decided take "M" and then in the months that follow I would use EPHRA 2.0 to maintain any positive change that happened. That was until I came across some information that changed my plans a "little bit". I came across the fact that "M" seems to Decrease activity in the brain that is known for the "fear" response. This is why it was postulated that "M" helps so much with emotional traumas. The person feels very, very happy and confidant while at the same time their fear response is dormant hence they are able to revisit past memories without the "fear" and see them from a different view. They are then able re-categorize the memory without the fear response and look on the event differently.
This started to have the gears in my head turn. I remember Shannon saying many times that "Fear" is usually the thing that keeps the Subs from working and causes the resistance. This made me think: What if I ran the sub, EPRHA 2.0, while I was under the affects of "M"? Would that make it so that the sub would have no resistance to its suggestions and I would become the embodiment of the script as it were? In combination with this, soon I found out there had been studies done with a combination of a certain drug and Hypnosis. They found that this combination was more effective then either of the two things used alone. On top of that another study found that certain drugs increased the "suggestibility" of hypnosis. I ended up deciding to try this little experiment on top of trying to heal myself.
I won't in much detail of what happened "during" this experiment except for the fact that my mind was obsessed with the sub while on "M". It was like my mind (Conscious) was obcessed with healing itself while on "M" and listening to the sub. I noticed myself saying certain things that seemed exactly like bullet points that are mentioned on the sales page. I should mention that "M" doesn't really have the effects of a psychedelic so I was still conscious during this until I fell asleep later on.
Results: So far I would say my theory was correct. I was a totally different person after I woke up. It took me three days but I noticed that I automatically did "all" the things found on the sales page for EPHRA 2.0. I also noticed surprise that I was able to consciously at will cause the state shifting to happen. I could enter a blissful, happy state without currently listening to the sub. I also noticed the Auto state shifting in play majorly. Anytime something happens that would normally trigger fear (or even guilt and shame) its like I just laugh on the inside. If I customer gets angry at me for messing something up its like instead of feeling any of those emotions or even anger I just laugh on the inside at their stupidity for overreacting over something small. I haven't gotten "actually" angry this whole (week or week/half) since I've done the experiment. To me anger just seems so stupid now. Why not just laugh at those situations and get on with my life.
I've kept using the sub but haven't really seen any increase in results. I feel like its just cementing whats already there which I plan on to keep doing until about the 30 day mark just to make sure gains are cemented in. Then I'm probably going to move on to AM6 refresher. I have noticed a couple of things though while still using the sub:
(1) It makes me go into a deep sleep around bed time and wake up groggy every time now. Whereas before it would only do it once in a while.
(2) I pretty much get lucid dreams every time or every other time now.
(3) The dreams are more "comprehensible" now. I can actually interpret them pretty easily without any guess work. Its like I "know" what their meaning is now without a doubt.
Usually the dreams are about the "former" me and why I thought the way I did. For example, just this morning I woke up from a lucid dream where I was playing Mercenaries mode on Resident evil 5. I wasn't actually playing it but sort of watching myself as if it were real going through a certain level. I kept on dieing and failing over and over early on in the stage. I woke up after I died after getting pretty far. I woke up and thought about the meaning for only 1 min then its like it came like a whisper in my mind. My fear of failure and my holding myself to some "perfectionist" standard. I realized that the reason I held myself to such a standard was because of fear. Fear of how others would see my failure and how they would mock and ridicule me. How humiliated I would feel. Of course that was the old me, the new me doesn't care and doesn't really feel any shame when making a mistake. Pretty much Shame and guilt have been extinguished from me. Fear still tries to make a comeback but the auto state shift takes care of it so it can't. Through all this, Its like my subconscious is telling me why the old me was the way it was.
Anyway, I could go on and on about the changes but I think I will leave that for when I post the bullet points for the program tomorrow though I will still be running it until sometime mid June in order to make sure the instructions are cemented. I just want to thank Shannon for making this sub because it finally feels great to be able have that weight lifted off of me and maybe even be more emotionally stable than most people around me now. If anyone has any other questions I will try to ask to the best of my ability whether here or in PM. Some might not agree with the experiment I ran due to the "M" component involved. I can understand and if by someway I violated some rule and either Shannon/or Ben want me to delete this Thread I will. As for regrets though, after surviving a mental disorder that usually has a 50% suicide rate, I don't really regret doing this.
P.S. Forgot to mention that I also quit all porn and online video games. I saw them for what they were, holding me back pretty much. Also, hope you guys don't mind any grammar errors.. way too lazy after work to proof read this before I post. See ya guys soon. Take care!
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 05-30-2016
Original Post is updated like I promised!
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - Benjamin - 05-30-2016
That's cool to be able to start to overcome PTSD. I know the issues it causes as i've had it myself, not from the military but from being attacked with a weapon mainly plus I feel combined and stacked on alot of fights from doing security for 6 years which probably didn't help.
The main issue it's caused for me was making me isolate myself alot, i've done alot of work on it but I still spend alot of time by myself. And for a while it made me kind of in 'overkill mode' (can't think of the word I really meant) like when something happened in security after that i'd react too early because of the extreme thread that seemed to be imprinted from it. Time off and healing helped with that though.
Should be all good man, just as long as people realize it isn't something we would recommend (e.g combining drugs with the programs) and that doing so is your own responsibility.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 05-30-2016
Let see, I ran E2 for about I would say a combination of 2 or 2 and a half months. I had to take breaks some times (days or sometimes 2 weeks in between) because my PTSD was literally causing some fierce resistance to the program. As for how long its now been since the "M" enchanced EPRHA 2.0 session, its been a week exactly. Part of me wants to move on to AM6 refresher, since i'm "cleared" out now, so I can master that but I'm pretty determined to at least keep this for another 30 days or so to cement this new change. I'm not exactly sure how poweful that "M" enhanced E2 session was but I can probably venture a guess. If I remember correctly "generally" users aren't to expect the Auto-state shifting until about long term usage (the 3 month or 6 month mark) I would say its around there in power maybe. Thats just my speculation though.
All I know is that the auto state shifting for fear was no where insight the day before and then the day after it was just there. To give you a idea of how it feels like right now its like the state shifting is causing some type of "fear amnesia" around "certain" memories. Imagine you trying to stick your finger through a orange but every time you do it your finger doesn't piece the orange but just slides along the surface. Thats how it feels like when I try to remember a "certain" memories where I felt fear. Its like I can't consciously access them that well. Like they are slipping out of my conscious mental grasp every time I reach for them (Not that I care that much).
Also the ones that I can remember are very, very fuzzy. Its like a painting where someone dumped a bucket of water on it and the various paints are starting to drip towards the bottom.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 05-30-2016
(05-30-2016, 09:46 PM)Benjamin Wrote: That's cool to be able to start to overcome PTSD. I know the issues it causes as i've had it myself, not from the military but from being attacked with a weapon mainly plus I feel combined and stacked on alot of fights from doing security for 6 years which probably didn't help.
The main issue it's caused for me was making me isolate myself alot, i've done alot of work on it but I still spend alot of time by myself. And for a while it made me kind of in 'overkill mode' (can't think of the word I really meant) like when something happened in security after that i'd react too early because of the extreme thread that seemed to be imprinted from it. Time off and healing helped with that though.
Should be all good man, just as long as people realize it isn't something we would recommend (e.g combining drugs with the programs) and that doing so is your own responsibility.
Well, thats good to hear then. I was actually really considering If I should post this or not. Didn't want to make it look like a bad reflection on you guys or this community at all. I guess I will just name it since I already got my first PM moments after updating this thread and the person guessed it on the first go.
"M'= MDMA
As I already told people in PMs don't confuse MDMA with Ecstasy. Ecstasy does have MDMA as a main component in it but Ecstasy usually has much more than just MDMA in it. What I had was 83% pure grade MDMA. Anyway, that is all.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 05-31-2016
Well, I said I would give a review of E2 so here it is. I will only go over some of the technologies (since some are self explanatory) and the new E2 Modules of the program.
Tech:
The Naturalizer: Allows the changes taking place to be accepted much more readily, and proceed naturally so that the change is as easy as possible. Yep, felt like I've always been this way though even though I know about a week ago I was totally different. That "old" person seems so foreign to me now. Like they were someone completely different.
The Optimus Engine [Version 3.0]: A specialized script and technology set that generates an intense focus on achieving the goal and finding creative and effective ways to do so that utilizes the full scope of your subconscious knowledge.I do believe this is why I was determined to find a cure for my ailment. Never was this motivated to cure this until I ran this program.
In-The-Moment State Shifting: Seeks to change the state of your awareness very quickly and while you listen to the program to better fit the achievement of the goal of the program. I definitely notice this every time I put on the sub now. Every time I use it now I seem to be put into a lucid dreaming state (My 24hr period for sub usage starts at 12am everyday). From what I heard lucid dreaming either happens in Theta or Delta if I remember correctly.
Triggered State Shifting: Seeks to change your state of awareness whenever you encounter a fear trigger, or a fear would otherwise be experienced. This requires longer term usage and possibly refreshing. Yep, gets triggered every time I would normally start to feel fear. It mostly only needs to be triggered when I'm in situations that I'm not familiar with (Fear of the unknown).
Automatic Self Training: Scripting designed to trigger your subconscious to automatically train itself to achieve the goal it is directed toward. Certainly feels like my mind has been doing this. Its actually gotten really good at this because its like, for example, someone will do something to get a rise out of (or hurt me) me and my automatic response is to totally disconnect from the response and then put on a "slight" smirk and laugh on the inside at their petty attempt to hurt me.
New Modules:
Healing and regenerating yourself mentally and emotionally. Mission accomplished!
Healing from emotional damage as a result of sexual dysfunction, trauma and abuse. I'm able to look back on the most traumatic PTSD moments in my life and just laugh at them. Now they just look like minor issues. As I've mention before though some of them aren't even detailed like they were before, very fuzzy to remember if I can remember well at all. Also, I have no shame around my sexual desires. I'm a man and I have them, which is perfectly natural.
Training yourself to heal and regenerate automatically. Even though this has mostly happened on a subconscious level I have done so consciously a few times. Whenever I have caught myself getting really really close to any sort of negativity (mainly thinking about macro, national like problems) I have caught myself and disconnected from the thought pattern. I can only control myself and not other people. I can help by by being part of the solution (being self actualized), not part of the problem (just another emotionally unhealthy person who doesn't think theirs anything wrong with them). I can help others if they let me but If they won't thats their choice I won't force the choice or use (GSF) to get them there.
Self compassion and self consideration in all the ways that maximize your self-healing, self regeneration and emotional pain relief. I love myself and see no major problems with myself. At the same time I don't keep myself from striving to be better.
Overcoming Guilt, Shame and Fear 5G (full script), plus additional tweaks to that script not found in the release version of that program as a stand alone. These things have pretty much been annihilated from my life. Fear only seems to show up around unfamiliar situations though its quickly taken care of almost automatically.
Training yourself to overcome guilt, shame and fear. Same as above ^
Outgrowing guilt, shame and fear. Pretty much same thing as above though there is something else. I noticed that I don't get angry at all. I think I read Shannon say something about Anger being associated with fear most of the time.. if so I simply don't have that associate anymore. I've just chosen to become "self amused" instead of angry now. Why Should I allow a @sshole to make a @sshole out of me and ruin my day? Just don't see the point in getting or being angry anymore
Learn whatever is necessary to outgrow guilt, shame and fear. Think I've pretty much just learned to be self amused when guilt,shame, fear, or anger would try rear their ugly heads. Its pretty much become my automatic response.
Projection of part of the awareness into the future in which the goals have been safely and successfully achieved, and then pulling the “now” self to that future through the connection. Not so sure about this one, so can't comment that much.
Optimus Engine 3.0 directed at achieving all the goals of the program safely and successfully. As I mentioned above I truly believe this is why I was so determined on healing myself.
Focus on overcoming guilt, shame and fear. Haven't been consciously focus on overcoming these but subconsciously might be a totally different story.
Disconnect from guilt, shame and fear, and allow yourself to work with them safely and as objectively as possible. Yep, I just totally disconnect from these and start laughing about the situation.
Make the process of overcoming guilt, shame and fear as enjoyable as possible. Apparently my subconscious took this quite literally and thought I should just amuse myself when these situations occur.
Appreciate yourself in all the right ways to allow for maximum success in self regeneration and healing. Have absolutely no problem appreciating myself now.
Let go of and stop needing/seeking the approval of and permission of others for your self-healing and regenerating. Yep, don't need anyone else's approval for anything anymore.
Give yourself approval and permission to live the life that allows you to heal and regenerate, stay healed and regenerated, and allows you to be genuinely happy, and to genuinely heal and regenerate. Yep, Have plans to run AM6, AYPs, and magnets again and I pretty known with certainty now that I will get all the skills I need from them to be successful in those areas.
Overcome The Victim Mentality (full script). Mission accomplished!
Deservedness for healing and regenerating and being healed and regenerated. I truly believe I deserve to feel the way I do now and that I didn't deserve to feel the way I use to.
End and prevent self pity and any desire to engage in it. Don't engage in this at all.
End and prevent any desire to have pity from others. Don't want anyone's self pity at all!
End and prevent self sabotage in self healing and regeneration. I think this is the main reason why I stopped playing FFXIV (Online MMO) and stopped watching porn. Playing FFXIV gave me the excuse that I was somewhat still interacting with other people, though through a TV screen. I just used that excuse so I could cut myself off from the world more because exposing myself to the world in a non-controlled environment meant having to face the "fear" of being hurt by people. Same thing with porn. I realized that I was afraid of emotional intimacy with a real woman because, once again, that would mean opening myself up and possibly being "hurt". I think this "fear" is why I resisted some of WM. Taking in the instructions in this program though I finally realized that no one can hurt me unless I allow them too. My experience with just laughing at someone trying to get a rise out of me, then them getting more angry and trying hard to affect me has made me realize this. With me acting like this the only one getting more hurt and angry is them
. On top of this I have cut out all sweets/deserts and sodas out of my diet.Physical, mental and emotional relaxation to maximize and benefit healing and regeneration. If I'm not in some happy, blissful state, I'm usually in a calm, tranquil relaxed state most of the time.
Positive Thinking, Positive Attitude (full program script). Really haven't had a negative thought at all and if I start getting close to one the automatic training just kicks in.
Neutralize internal negativity and make yourself immune to internal and external negativity. Yep, people's negativity just goes through one ear and out the other.
Allow for happiness, self healing and regenerating through genuine gratitude and appreciation. I've actually been more grateful than during any other time in my life this week. I can enjoy and appreciate the beauty around me a lot more without the negativity. I'm actually really grateful to be alive and appreciate each day i'm here.
Make yourself worthy of your own self love, and allow you to be loving towards yourself. Realize I'm very worthy of my own love and of being loved by someone else.
Fill yourself with unconditional, non-specific loving, healing and regenerating energy, and use it to help you heal and regenerate. Guess this has happened, not sure.
Like yourself, and if necessary, make yourself deserving of self liking and self love, and adjust yourself to be someone you can like and love. I love and am content with myself. The only downside, I guess you could call it, is that i've become so loving, and mellow that I've kinda of procrastinated with some of my online school work the last week or so. Just fell so content like I really don't have to do anything
Generate and maintain hope. I think its gone beyond hope really. I realize now I can pretty accomplish anything I desire just as long as I acquire the right tools
Generate and allow all necessary self confidence for healing and regenerating. Mostly shown itself in social confidence. I can say whatever I want to say and if I don't get the response I was wanting, psh whatever lol. I can still say anything I want and when I want so I have freedom which is the whole point.
Transform anger into a positive that assists in healing and regenerating not only the self, but the causes for the anger. Hmm Don't get angry anymore. "I don't get mad I get glad" (Corny I know).
Self esteem/respect/self worth and validity enhancement. Don't really need other people give me self worth or be happy. I don't mind being alone or being around other people, there both the same to me. I still have that state of happiness and joy it is independent of how others perceive me.
Let go of and heal and regenerate anything that might hold you back from healing and regenerating, and move on into a state of healing and regenerating. Use to live in the past due to PTSD but not anymore. I rarely think about the past anymore. More excited about the future
Mental, physical and emotional stress relief. I haven't felt any stress in a entire week. Haven't even felt drained from being in social situations with lots of people like I normally am.
Overcome the urge to change subs to avoid dealing with things the program is helping you with. Hmm I would have this problem before my "session" last week. The PTSD (Fear induced trauma) would just cause massive resistance. Now, not anymore. Though I might feel a lot of excitement about moving on the AM6 Refresher since I want to grow even more but I'm determine to cement these changes for at least up to 30 days.
Take full responsibility for your beliefs, thoughts, actions, choices and outcomes, and the results you get from using this program. Yep, I take full responsibility for all of it.
Learn what is necessary to let go of the past, so that you can let go of the past. I think this has mainly happened in my lucid dreams and some of my aha moments. I feel like I have already let go but now I feel like my subconscious is showing me something about my previous self so that I realize the "why" of why I was the way I was. I've actually found these instructive moments to be very enjoyable and instructive. Now I know how not to follow into the same hole again.
Repair yourself mentally, emotionally and sexually.Mission accomplished!
Self enabling and allowing for self healing and regeneration.Mission accomplished!
Forgive those who it would benefit you and your healing to forgive – including yourself. Already forgiven them and just laugh now that I let such idiots, who were probably damaged themselves, damage me.
Achieving balance mentally, physically and emotionally.Mission accomplished!
Anyway, that was my summary and will continue to run this for a couple more weeks. Just remember when life gives you Lemons, take the lemons, squeeze the lemon juice in life's eyes and laugh manically while life is rolling on the ground in pain. That is all!
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - Benjamin - 05-31-2016
That is some VERY cool results for 2 months!
Quote:I think this "fear" is why I resisted some of WM.
Did you get a thing where things started manifesting, like girls chasing you, being interested and stuff then your mind seemed like it couldn't handle it and went into a panic and tried really hard to get rid of it all?
That happened to me several times and it sucks, obviously some type of fear. If it wasn't for that and if these manifestations and other stuff was consistent i'd have been VERY happy with WM due to the brief glimpses of awesomeness.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 05-31-2016
(05-31-2016, 04:53 PM)Benjamin Wrote: That is some VERY cool results for 2 months!
Quote:I think this "fear" is why I resisted some of WM.
Did you get a thing where things started manifesting, like girls chasing you, being interested and stuff then your mind seemed like it couldn't handle it and went into a panic and tried really hard to get rid of it all?
That happened to me several times and it sucks, obviously some type of fear. If it wasn't for that and if these manifestations and other stuff was consistent i'd have been VERY happy with WM due to the brief glimpses of awesomeness.
I "think" I might have had something like that. In stage 2, which I'm pretty sure has some of the magnetic aura in it, both women and men started talking to me a lot more. That was with only 3 days in too (about 21hrs per day exposure). This was also around the time I noticed the redhead who was attracted to me kinda of got mesmerized and kept on staring at me when she thought I wasn't looking. Unfortunately as you know I missed out on the BJ she was planning for me in the janitor's closet but meh, there will be other chances. I think also there were other chances I had with women who gave me the "eyes" but I think the way my mind tried to resist the programming was by making me very apathetic in later stages. The apathy about social situations made it very easy to talk (because I didn't care) but made me not do anything with the responses I was getting every once in a while. So yeah, I think my fear of being hurt was what was blocking a lot of the program. I even got a panic attack in stage 5, which is where all the magic is suppose to happen, which obviously indicates that the program really touched on some very rooted fear.
Now that I feel like 99% of my fear is gone I think I will get very good results this time around when I run it though I will be doing the experiment with the refresher instead. Just not sure now if that will be right after my experiment with the AM6 refresher or not. During sometime on AM6 I'm probably going to put up a poll and have the community decide what I run after AM6 refresher either: WM, New AOIS, AYPW, AYP big breasted sexual lover, or AYP Wealthy romantic lover. I was going to have SM3.0 in there originally as a choice as well but after thinking about it for a long time ,magnet wise, I more interested in WM because I want a very deep connection with each of the woman I am with and want to enhance the new found social freedom I have. Whichever the community decides at the time I will keep running it until I become the embodiment of that program (unless I really don't notice any results whatsoever after at least 3 months of running it).
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 06-05-2016
Well, thought I would update on status. So far haven't really notice much else from this sub, just like I thought I would. Still noticed that I'm tired from even listening to a few hours of it honestly. I think once the fear was taken care of and I got most of the script actualized there really wasn't much left for me. Even the dreams have stopped though like I said even with a couple of hours of listening I'm so darn tired that I can sleep for hours after putting on the sub. I am thinking about moving on sooner to another sub because I am noticing more and more a certain con that I mentioned before. I'm so content and at ease now that its hard to get stuff done. Combine that with some procrastination issues and you see how this could be a Issue. Therefore I'm probably going to end EPRHA 2.0 experimental run early.
I'm very satisfied with the results I had and feel like a new person in a way. Only question is what I'm going to do next. Before I was pretty determined to do AM6 but with the new AOIS out I'm very tempted to jump on the bandwagon. Though there are other candidates as well. I will be making a thread in the men's product discussion and let other people decide on what the next experimental run will be.
In other news, my PTSD is still going into remission. So glad to have this happen and feel normal. I did find out why my PTSD caused so much problems with the sub though. I knew beforehand that people with PTSD have their Hippocampus shrink compared to people without PTSD. Its just that once you actually see the images for yourself its something totally different.
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Kinda of makes sense now why I could't handle the emotions sometimes. My mind was stuck in "survival" mode all the time due to my Hippocampus (regulates short/long term memory) and my Amygdala (Regulates fear, processes major emotions, works overtime for people with PTSD) was hyperactive. Luckly, found out there are things you can take to promote growth in the in Hippocampus. I think by doing this and my sessions that decrease hyperactivity in my Amygdala I should have the rest of this nip in the bud.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 06-10-2016
Ok, time for a update. Unfortunately, there is good news and bad news. I will start with the good stuff first. Been on AOSI for the last couple of days. First day of experiment was decent. Found out a couple of interesting things. Apparently when I'm having my MDMA enhanced sub session I immediately take on the attitude of whatever sub I'm using. Which makes sense and explains why the two experiments so far felt totally different. When I did EPRHA 2.0 I kept on thinking about how wonderful and beautiful the world is. I also thought about my rage and how it was worthless to me. Overall I just felt relaxed and blissful until I fell asleep halfway through the session. The AOSI session was totally different. I felt very, very confidant (to the point of arrogance) and just kept on thinking about how I could get any woman I wanted. Basically I thought I was The universe's gift to woman. Apparently, when my mind is effected and I run a sub my mind's thought pattern's only go in the direction in which the Sub i'm playing deals with.
With EPRHA 2.0 my thought patterns only went along with ideas of healing or letting go (at least until I fell asleep which I think had to do with the relaxation component of EPRHA 2.0). With AOSI I stayed up the entire time (8+hours, not even tired til the 10hr mark) overflowing with confidence and feeling like I was the most sexy person alive. I have speculated that this might be due to the ACSRB component of 5.5G subs but won't be able to confirm this until I do a experiment with a original 5G sub that doesn't have this tech and see if I get the same situation of the sub "directing" my thought patterns the entire time. Either way I find this whole thing to be very interesting from a research type of view. Sometimes I've wondered if I've found some type of new form of "brainwashing" due to my thought patterns being about nothing but the subject the sub deals with.
Now as for aftermath, First day was only "decent". I didn't really notice any hunger or heat generation (until later anyway). I did remake a plenty of fish account that was pretty arrogant but got results. Had only just finished making it and within an hour got 3 requests for meet up and 1 girl added me to her favorites. I went out multiple times over the last few days (really looking for IOIs) but didn't notice anything except for one thing that happened on the first day. I was walking through the aisles and locked eyes with this one woman as I passed her aisle. I went back to the that aisle and looked at some items near her. This is the first time I noticed that my body started to heat up. She stood there looking for a while and then she got in front of her basket and started messing with things in her basket for like 3 mins or so. She then walked to another aisle.
Other than that first day I have noticed no other IOIs and the other affects have been very inconsistent. Barely no increase in hunger generally. The body heat is hit or miss when I play the sub. Dreams seem to be deep and real like. Feeling of energy in my body seems to be hit or miss to. Haven't gotten any other hits on my POF account since the first day. With that, I think the bad news is that I think I might be in that 5-10% group of people where that component in the sub is causing resistance. I've been noting other indicators of resistance as well (lethargy when playing the sub, "minor" agitation here and there, etc). Doesn't seem to be as consistent as my EPRHA 2.0 results were, which I'm assuming is due to the component not being worded for universal use (I could be wrong though). So, I'm seriously considering stopping for a while and switch to something else until the new update comes out. If I do end up switching.. its probably either going to be SM or WM refresher. We shall see what happens.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - JackOfHearts - 06-10-2016
Impressive how people give up only after a "couple of days". Certainly because Shannon said there will an update so it make us assume that this version is not worth any sh* . Seems like with AOSI people expect instant results and if they don't have it they don't even want to run to sub for a month which was just the minimum requirement of 5G tech.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 06-11-2016
(06-10-2016, 11:26 PM)Alpha360 Wrote: Impressive how people give up only after a "couple of days". Certainly because Shannon said there will an update so it make us assume that this version is not worth any sh* . Seems like with AOSI people expect instant results and if they don't have it they don't even want to run to sub for a month which was just the minimum requirement of 5G tech.
Hmmm Alpha I didn't seem to have gotten anything from that post except for what I perceive to be negativity and some pressume assumptions about my motives. Let me point out a few things:
(1) You could have easily made that constructive, which would have been well better received and thought out than what you just wrote.
(2) I did get instant and seemed to be permanent results with my Enhanced E2 experiment which I assumed was in the 3 months to maybe 6+ month range in strength (my calculations based on the the gained auto state shifting ability).
(3) Lets assume that #2 is true (The 3-6+month part). If that is true Then my mind was getting in its own way by comprehending part of the tech instructs incorrectly even at after a enhanced session.
(4) If #3 if correct, which I might well be wrong about that i'm not expert, Why would I want keep on running it the "normal" way afterwards to cement something that my mind might wrongly interpret and therefore cause inconsistent results since I'm getting in my own way?
Or, you could just disregard everything I said above which are legitimate questions to keep running it and just write a negative comment that just "assumed" a lot without any thought especially about #4 and go about your day. I'm just saying.
Btw, Don't take this post as a attack. I've seen you write some well reasoned and good posts on this forum. That last post though did not seemed to be well reasoned at all and very presumptuousness about my motives.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - JackOfHearts - 06-11-2016
You are assuming too much things. Why don't you keep running the sub and keep an open mind. You are using 2 different tools that have not been tested extensively and you seems to make conclusion very fast about them like you have known them all your life.
You are not alone doing this, a lot of guys are doing the same thing.
On ephra 2 maybe you did get instant results but maybe that was also due to the fact that you had run it before for around a month. To do the same experiment you would have to use AOSI for the same amount of time first then use MDMA.
I think you want to stop using it because you think that maybe AOSI version one is broken and you have no idea if it is really the case. And if you will resist the sub or not after a month of usage.
But you are also free to not test a sub that have not been tested extensively, maybe you don't want to take any risk and I understand that.
RE: Transcendent Sith Lord's Exp.Journal (EPRHA2.0,AM6 Refresher,Magnet) - DarthXedonias - 06-11-2016
Ya know alpha, I think I will continue Experimenting this sub for a little while longer. Something recently happened that peaked my interest. I will PM you for further information later about it. As for why I wanted to discontinue use, there is the reason I said above though there is also the reason of time and resources. MDMA can not be continually used regularly. Theres "usually" a one month wait period between each time you use it. This is because it drains your serotonin/dopamine and you need time to recover those resources. With that said there, there are supplements you can take together (along with regular excise that increases serotonin) which will allow you to use it every 2 weeks. Luckily, I already had these supplements for a while now so I just use them pre/post session to start preparing for the next one. Thats the time restraint. The resource restraint is that I have enough MDMA to last me about 8-9 months if I continue at 2 week intervals. A lot of time but still a restraint, so I need to choose my research experiments carefully and wisely. But due to recent developments I will continue with this. Recent developments have have been really "eye opening" you could say.
Anyway, about internal results that have stayed so far due to AOSI:
-Totally don't fap anymore. EPRHA 2.0 got rid of porn, now AOSI got rid of fapping totally.
- Confidence has has gone down to a good level. Its not so much of a ragging confidence right now, its more of a calm, collected type
-Feel like I'm way more sexually desirable
Hmm I'm just trying to understand though why this energy in my body is so inconsistent. There was one time I woke up and I just felt the energy surging in my body then it calmed down after a while. Maybe I have some time of energy blockages that the sub has to work through? I have heard of such things when studying Qigong and the internal martial arts (Tai chi, Bagua, I-Hsing). That could be a cause of the inconsistency with the energy, heat and hunger. We shall see if this is true.
Edit: also, almost forgot to mention. Just so people know I mentioned that I did take breaks sometimes during my EPRHA 2.0 run before my first experiment. One of those just so happened to be right before I did the MDMA experiment. I had taken a week off from E2 right before I did the first experiment. Just wanted to clarify that so people don't think that I ran E2 one month straight before I ran the first experiment.