10-13-2018, 12:42 AM
Well, started USLM2 so thought I would give my input.
Program is pretty darn good so far. On the fear removal modules, it seems like its doing something I noticed with 3.2. When I used DMSI 3.2 B I automatically got the scorched earth response where my subconscious made sure everything that could go wrong went wrong and it used the negative feelings (anger, rage, hate,etc) to "fuel" the resistance itself. Basically, cause an external event to promet a negative emotion and then use that to fuel more resistance or use something internal (a memory to prompt my PTSD for example) to prompt a negative feeling. I had to stop B due to that. When I got to version A my subconscious couldn't use that tactic since the negativity would be healed hence it couldn't fuel the resistance further. I'm noticing that the fear removal modules are acting in a similar way to the heal. While listening the first time I noticed there was some times where some part of me would try to resist but there was nothing to help fuel the resistance, in this case the fear.
I did notice still that I still got the slight headache I would associate with running the B side of a sub but it wasn't as bad as it usually would be and disappeared after a while. It does make me wonder if healing + fear removal might be a good combination though. Might be more indirect way of getting to the goal but could allow for the healing to happen without any "fear" being used stop the healing. Eh, guess we might see in the future though its totally possible that we might only near Fear removal for now on. I did reach a few insights after my first run though:
- I have been the one keeping myself back from succeeding and therefore I have taken full responsability for my own success.
- Failure is only a permanent state if you allow it. It is I who chooses whether I want to remain a failure. Therefore success or failure is a choice, not something that just happens once and then that state remains that way for the rest of your life.
- I am the writer of my own "story". Realizing that means I have to take responsibility for my life (which scares most people) but at the same time that means I am in fully in control.
- remaining fearful doesn't keep me in control, but take responsibility for myself does.
- I've already pretty much imagined myself in Korea in about a month from now and am certain I'm going to make it there. I have already just given myself just a month to complete my courses.
-I've pretty much decided i'm not going to be playing any videos games until I'm pretty much done with my courses.
Reflecting on some of those I have realized the error in thinking that "fear" means i'm in control and am safe. Its only when I take responsibility for myself and move out of that "comfort zone" do I have true freedom and am control. As for some results, I have already noticed something with my studies. I actually took the final test for my project management course like 2 hours ago. When I was going over the material one last time before the test I noticed I have a new level of understanding for it. Interestingly, while I was taking the test, the test itself seemed very "odd" to me and thought I might fail though I had already purposed that had I failed that would not be the end of the story. I would keep studying and trying until I succeeded. I actually ended up passing the test by a wide margin and did competent or exemplary in all categories except for 1. Thinking that might have been a combination of the success thinking and utilize the luck component of the sub.
I think another component might have been my intuition. I don't know why but I've gotten this feeling of relying and trusting my intuition more which I have been complying with. I've been noticing when I haven't followed my intuition (at least once so far) I ended up proving that I should have listened. Since then I have started listening to my gut feelings on things every time I get prompted to. Anyway, that pretty much it. Currently listening to the sub for my second day and finishing up the practice test for my 8 course now and will probably finish taking it later today after work. I will also try to quickly finish up my Lesson plan and my 1000 word summary for my TEFL certificate today as well since the time to turn it in is by Sunday exactly at 12am.
Program is pretty darn good so far. On the fear removal modules, it seems like its doing something I noticed with 3.2. When I used DMSI 3.2 B I automatically got the scorched earth response where my subconscious made sure everything that could go wrong went wrong and it used the negative feelings (anger, rage, hate,etc) to "fuel" the resistance itself. Basically, cause an external event to promet a negative emotion and then use that to fuel more resistance or use something internal (a memory to prompt my PTSD for example) to prompt a negative feeling. I had to stop B due to that. When I got to version A my subconscious couldn't use that tactic since the negativity would be healed hence it couldn't fuel the resistance further. I'm noticing that the fear removal modules are acting in a similar way to the heal. While listening the first time I noticed there was some times where some part of me would try to resist but there was nothing to help fuel the resistance, in this case the fear.
I did notice still that I still got the slight headache I would associate with running the B side of a sub but it wasn't as bad as it usually would be and disappeared after a while. It does make me wonder if healing + fear removal might be a good combination though. Might be more indirect way of getting to the goal but could allow for the healing to happen without any "fear" being used stop the healing. Eh, guess we might see in the future though its totally possible that we might only near Fear removal for now on. I did reach a few insights after my first run though:
- I have been the one keeping myself back from succeeding and therefore I have taken full responsability for my own success.
- Failure is only a permanent state if you allow it. It is I who chooses whether I want to remain a failure. Therefore success or failure is a choice, not something that just happens once and then that state remains that way for the rest of your life.
- I am the writer of my own "story". Realizing that means I have to take responsibility for my life (which scares most people) but at the same time that means I am in fully in control.
- remaining fearful doesn't keep me in control, but take responsibility for myself does.
- I've already pretty much imagined myself in Korea in about a month from now and am certain I'm going to make it there. I have already just given myself just a month to complete my courses.
-I've pretty much decided i'm not going to be playing any videos games until I'm pretty much done with my courses.
Reflecting on some of those I have realized the error in thinking that "fear" means i'm in control and am safe. Its only when I take responsibility for myself and move out of that "comfort zone" do I have true freedom and am control. As for some results, I have already noticed something with my studies. I actually took the final test for my project management course like 2 hours ago. When I was going over the material one last time before the test I noticed I have a new level of understanding for it. Interestingly, while I was taking the test, the test itself seemed very "odd" to me and thought I might fail though I had already purposed that had I failed that would not be the end of the story. I would keep studying and trying until I succeeded. I actually ended up passing the test by a wide margin and did competent or exemplary in all categories except for 1. Thinking that might have been a combination of the success thinking and utilize the luck component of the sub.
I think another component might have been my intuition. I don't know why but I've gotten this feeling of relying and trusting my intuition more which I have been complying with. I've been noticing when I haven't followed my intuition (at least once so far) I ended up proving that I should have listened. Since then I have started listening to my gut feelings on things every time I get prompted to. Anyway, that pretty much it. Currently listening to the sub for my second day and finishing up the practice test for my 8 course now and will probably finish taking it later today after work. I will also try to quickly finish up my Lesson plan and my 1000 word summary for my TEFL certificate today as well since the time to turn it in is by Sunday exactly at 12am.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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