10-07-2018, 10:39 PM
(09-13-2018, 11:35 AM)Shannon Wrote: And just think, E1 isn't even 5.5G tech!Yes sir, I look forward to upgrading in the future
Day 86
I won't go into too much detail but I have had a very difficult time after being sick, reverting back to behaviours and mindsets from some bad years between the ages of 18-21. In some way it feels like I did it to relive a fraction of that time for perspective and understanding but I am not sure. I don't know if it has to do with the subliminal and resistance but it seems like it might be. I have not felt like listening lately, but I continue to run it every night. Man it's really breaking me down. I can feel myself coming out the other side of it though, I've almost pulled through. I don't know why I have so much resistance but at least I eventually cave. I could feel things begin to turn 3 or 4 nights ago when I had a dream that the clown from IT was chasing me around an old abandoned house, but I was in full control and out witted him at every turn until the end when we stood a short distance apart face to face outside the front of the house. He showed those nasty sharp teeth and smiled but I maintained eye contact and I was no scared. It's so bizarre that I get past my fears and trauma through such abstract dreams. I wonder if it's because so many of my fears and pain etc have been so irrational, based on corrupted belief systems. I dunno, just thought I'd check in though to give an update. It's been a tough time but I feel like things are about to get a whole lot better.
