04-03-2012, 01:03 AM
(04-01-2012, 08:24 PM)K-Train Wrote: Weekend was great! Went to a collegiate conference featuring a bunch of schools and met some really cool people. I wasn't stuck in my head that often and ended up attracting a lot of women. I also for the first time EVER approached a girl for a dance at a ritzy little jazz party but got rejected BUT IT DIDN'T FAZE ME!! It was incredible how nonchalant I was about it! I got back with my group however later in the night that same girl ended up coming over and asking for a dance. She was cute and she asked me if I knew how to ballroom dance and I said "it's never to late learn!" I knew a bit, and managed to get by quite well.
ASC's effects are incredible. I'm on my 76th day and the effects are meshing with my natural personality. I rarely get nervous and I am able to conquer my fears much easier. The "problem" now is that I'm finding I don't care much for people all that much. Even though I went with a group I found myself walking off around the hotel alone however I enjoyed it very much and had no negativity come up to bring me down. Even though my ability to socialize is better I'm finding that I simply like solitude and being alone. I think before the fear of being labeled "outcast" forced me to socialize but as ASC's effects grow I am become more inclined to simply let conversations die off or simply remain quiet as I did when I went to a small party Saturday night.
That is the confidence to express your natural masculine instinct of bring everything to a resting point of peace lol. I would guess that 99% of conversations are really about validation..so when you don't care about it anymore you really have no reason to talk
at least with people you'r really not that interested in talking to or connecting with.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
