Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[Shannon]

Well, thought I would give a short update since something else happened.

Its official, the girl I was still talking to was ignoring me because she was getting tired of waiting. I feel kind of weird about this. I feel annoyed but not sad or angry really. In a way it is a good thing but at the same time I'm still annoyed. I think the thing that caused my annoyance really is the fact that this woman was talking all about how she could wait however long it took to be with me, we talked about our future together, What we would do in the future, and where we might live once I made it back over there. She said all this talk like she was determined to make this work and then she didn't even last more than 2 months before she said "I'm not happy anymore and I'm sorry. Very sorry". She said that after I confronted her about her ignoring me after a while and if she had found someone else. She said she hadn't found someone else. Guess at least that was good.

Just turns out her words were cheap after all and there was no real resolve behind them. First sign of struggle and she is out. In the end I will find someone better and someone who actually takes commitment seriously when the time comes. I do admit, there was something interesting about this. I felt like part of me, I think the part offering resistance to DMSI, was trying to get me to take this as a whole generalization and add it to my "reasons not to trust women" list but I think since I was so self aware of that part trying to manipulate the situation I just couldn't bring myself to do that. It felt repugnant to me to do something like that. Not to mention, it would have just re-enforced my previous reality that kept me alone and having no contact with women.

I guess that means I have matured to a good degree due to 3.2 since I can just brush this bad experience off. More than anything I feel like I'm going to use this to speed up the process of getting my degree even sooner so I can leave sooner. I think also, since I want a perfect long term relationship or marriage (in another country with more favorable laws for men where it is safe) I think I will wait til the Attract your perfect wife sub is out in 6G. If I'm going to have something long term I want it to be near perfect really. I think this whole time I use DMSI, I'm just going to go with FWB or casual dating type relationships. I will really think about that because on the one hand I really want to have a connection with someone but on the other hand I want a long term relationship with someone that rather be nigh perfect and I know they are going to be there during the good and bad times.

On that front @Shannon I have a question. If you prefer having a real connection with someone in a more long term type relationship will DMSI take that into consideration when manifesting someone to have sex with? Or does it just end with manifesting people that you find sexually attractive that you can have sex with and doesn't really take your preferences into account of what type of relationship it might be? Just wanted to know.

DMSI is designed to make you sexually irresistible to the people you find sexually attractive, to whatever degree you find them sexually attractive. It is up to you what you do with the results. I have turned my results from 3.1 into what looks to be a permanent relationship. At the time, I thought it was going to be just lots of sex with various women. I am very happy, and so is she. But I don't run DMSI anymore, once I determined that that was going to be the case.

Either way, not as upset over this as I thought I would be. I did feel my eyes getting watery while having a last text chat with her but I didn't feel the accompanying sadness. I think something might have been suppressing it which is probably a good thing. As for the future, at least I have my travel to look forward to. Will be able to travel to the Philippines, Korea, Japan, China, and Thailand if I choose to. I do find the woman in those countries to be very attractive and it might be a good testing for DMSI 3.3 and DMSI 3.4 (when it comes out). Granted I should be able to test run 3.3 on local girls before I leave this country within 2-3 months. I will try to get out of here even sooner if I can. I don't know why but I've noticed since I've gotten back from my trip that I might still find some local women attractive but I'm not as attracted to them as I use to. The inner beauty (for lack of a better word) of foreign women (with the lack of feminism and entitlement) really put what want in a woman into perspective.

Eh, I do have some contact info for some Latin girls in Mexico and Latin America so I might try contacting some of them since i'm pretty much "free" now but we shall see. Not sure if I want to get back into this right away after all this. Might be better to just focus on getting through my classes as soon as possible and then leave. After that I can just focus on my teaching English job and seeing potential women. Guess that's all for now.

P.S. @Shannon one more thing. Did you ever test that idea ,about women being affected by the aura if they see a picture of you, with the models? Even though most likely it said it wouldn't be worth it just wanted to know if it was even viable. I'm pretty curious.

The models indicated that attempting to add such a thing to DMSI would destroy it.