08-28-2018, 01:30 AM
Day 45
I had a crazy dream last night. It started with me sitting down and testing some seats for comfort on a new carriage / roller coaster type cart. All of a sudden it unexpectedly took off. Nothing was holding me in and I was terrified. I held on to the sides of the cart for dear life as it moved through this huge tunnel network at what felt like light speed. Somehow on the sides of the tunnel I could see glimpses or flashes of experiences/events in life that frighten me. The flashes weren't clear but I remember seeing a few that related to primary school (age 5-12) era events somehow. I finally came to the end of the tunnel and my heart was pounding and I was relieved to have survived the experience. All of a sudden I felt someone pull a helmet off my head and I was in some type of lab with about 5 scientists standing around me. I said WTF was that? Was that even real? And they confirmed that it was not. I was wearing some type of advanced virtual reality helmet. Then at that moment I realised that life is like a dream, or a virtual reality hallucination and all the things that I have been scared of aren't even real. It felt like a breakthrough of some kind, like a climatic conclusion to the resistance I have experienced from about day 32 or so. It was crazy enough that I thought it was worth mentioning. I have felt a lot more at ease today and less depressed. Maybe a little more emotional but in a good empathetic type of way, like a barrier has finally been torn down. Good stuff
I had a crazy dream last night. It started with me sitting down and testing some seats for comfort on a new carriage / roller coaster type cart. All of a sudden it unexpectedly took off. Nothing was holding me in and I was terrified. I held on to the sides of the cart for dear life as it moved through this huge tunnel network at what felt like light speed. Somehow on the sides of the tunnel I could see glimpses or flashes of experiences/events in life that frighten me. The flashes weren't clear but I remember seeing a few that related to primary school (age 5-12) era events somehow. I finally came to the end of the tunnel and my heart was pounding and I was relieved to have survived the experience. All of a sudden I felt someone pull a helmet off my head and I was in some type of lab with about 5 scientists standing around me. I said WTF was that? Was that even real? And they confirmed that it was not. I was wearing some type of advanced virtual reality helmet. Then at that moment I realised that life is like a dream, or a virtual reality hallucination and all the things that I have been scared of aren't even real. It felt like a breakthrough of some kind, like a climatic conclusion to the resistance I have experienced from about day 32 or so. It was crazy enough that I thought it was worth mentioning. I have felt a lot more at ease today and less depressed. Maybe a little more emotional but in a good empathetic type of way, like a barrier has finally been torn down. Good stuff
