08-17-2018, 01:26 PM
Day 36 (tonight)
I hit some some tough resistance since my last post, the worst I experienced since the first week of the sub. I am happy to experience it though and I have tried my best to accept it but it's tough when I feel so depressed and yesterday I had panic attack level anxiety.
Today I am feeling better, still not at 100%, but I can tell I am coming out the other side. Last night I had a lot of dreams. I can't remember then, but I remember waking up and in a half-asleep state, I was visualizing trimming my issues into a neat little rectangular prism. That sounds weird, but it was like I was trimming back a hedge inside my head. I don't know what the hell that was all about but it felt as if it signified that I was successfully processing something through my dreams.
Another note. I bought new speakers with a 20khz frequency output and from day 32 onward I have been using the ultrasonic track at night. It feels like I sleep better because I can't hear anything but I have been waking up with that familiar tired feeling that I noticed when I first began the masked track. I think it made the resistance stronger too, but perhaps it would have been the same had I continued with the masked track, I will never know. It's been a tough week though, and I thought this was worth an update. I also thought it was interesting that the resistance peaked around the day 32 mark. Not sure if there's any significance there, but I know these subs are recommended to be run for a minimum of 32 days.
I hit some some tough resistance since my last post, the worst I experienced since the first week of the sub. I am happy to experience it though and I have tried my best to accept it but it's tough when I feel so depressed and yesterday I had panic attack level anxiety.
Today I am feeling better, still not at 100%, but I can tell I am coming out the other side. Last night I had a lot of dreams. I can't remember then, but I remember waking up and in a half-asleep state, I was visualizing trimming my issues into a neat little rectangular prism. That sounds weird, but it was like I was trimming back a hedge inside my head. I don't know what the hell that was all about but it felt as if it signified that I was successfully processing something through my dreams.
Another note. I bought new speakers with a 20khz frequency output and from day 32 onward I have been using the ultrasonic track at night. It feels like I sleep better because I can't hear anything but I have been waking up with that familiar tired feeling that I noticed when I first began the masked track. I think it made the resistance stronger too, but perhaps it would have been the same had I continued with the masked track, I will never know. It's been a tough week though, and I thought this was worth an update. I also thought it was interesting that the resistance peaked around the day 32 mark. Not sure if there's any significance there, but I know these subs are recommended to be run for a minimum of 32 days.
