08-09-2018, 04:47 PM
Day 27
I thought today how much my life has changed in such a short time since I started listening to EPHRA. It's changed very covertly, that you could almost guess it was natural and not the subliminal. I feel like EPHRA has changed my trajectory in life in respect to both my behavior and thinking. For example I have been into strength training for a long time and it comes to my attention how far I was truly pushing myself away from my goals. I'd lift heavy weights to help raise my self-esteem, making me feel superior to others, but all I did was promote tiredness and injury. I have gradually over these weeks transitioned away from obsessively counting calories and began moving/training for the purpose of fun and movement quality. I am not obsessing over diet and instead eating healthy one ingredient foods when I am hungry. I am allowing my body to heal physically, something I have not done for a long time, normally having too much focus on training and achieving strength goals to take the time off to allow old injuries to heal. I can see now that a lot of things I did were in response to low self-esteem (look at what I can do, I am better than you) and other things were in relation to anxiety (perfectionism - e.g. perfect diet, perfect body). I edited and rewrote this post because it did not read very well and made no sense, but what I mean by this is that I have had a realisation that EPHRA is changing my behavior and thinking in a way that it feels natural and was my own doing. It almost came as a surprise to think about what changes are happening and then make the connection to the sub. I have also been looking at the "self-esteem 5.5g" subliminal as another option when I have finished with EPHRA. But for now the experiment continues.
I thought today how much my life has changed in such a short time since I started listening to EPHRA. It's changed very covertly, that you could almost guess it was natural and not the subliminal. I feel like EPHRA has changed my trajectory in life in respect to both my behavior and thinking. For example I have been into strength training for a long time and it comes to my attention how far I was truly pushing myself away from my goals. I'd lift heavy weights to help raise my self-esteem, making me feel superior to others, but all I did was promote tiredness and injury. I have gradually over these weeks transitioned away from obsessively counting calories and began moving/training for the purpose of fun and movement quality. I am not obsessing over diet and instead eating healthy one ingredient foods when I am hungry. I am allowing my body to heal physically, something I have not done for a long time, normally having too much focus on training and achieving strength goals to take the time off to allow old injuries to heal. I can see now that a lot of things I did were in response to low self-esteem (look at what I can do, I am better than you) and other things were in relation to anxiety (perfectionism - e.g. perfect diet, perfect body). I edited and rewrote this post because it did not read very well and made no sense, but what I mean by this is that I have had a realisation that EPHRA is changing my behavior and thinking in a way that it feels natural and was my own doing. It almost came as a surprise to think about what changes are happening and then make the connection to the sub. I have also been looking at the "self-esteem 5.5g" subliminal as another option when I have finished with EPHRA. But for now the experiment continues.
