07-22-2018, 06:17 PM
E1
Days 1-5
Tiredness, anger, disillusionment and depression. Without a doubt this is probably the worst I have felt in a long time. I could barely talks to family and friends, it was as if I felt so depressed that I could not even put on a front. I was falling asleep randomly during the day out of sheer exhaustion. When I would wake up I was in a stunned state that was very difficult to snap out of. Started getting worried and thought about quitting the subliminal but I looked through the information here and decided to keep going. After all, something that makes me feel this bad must be doing something good.
Days 5-9
Noticing I am not as tired during the day especially after the 7th night of listening. Decided to stop listening during the day and only at night. Feeling happier and more connected with people. Old people are randomly approaching me and chatting for extended periods of time which was never the case. Feels like an emotional weight is lifted from my soul in a way. I notice I am not squinting as much anymore when in crowded places, I can open my eyes fully and can more easily make eye contact with people. I think it's because I am being less self-conscious and physically tightened up if you know what I mean. I was dealing with a woman today who seemed to have a few issues and I did not feel affected by the strange looks she gave me or her abrupt nature because I am feeling more confident and comfortable within myself. It's all hard to explain but things are working for me.
So it appears to be having a very positive influence in such a short amount if time. Kind of like warp-speed therapy lol. I am very happy for having found this place. I think I will work on this clearing process for a good amount of time and then purchase something, like an increased confidence that can build on a more solid foundation without all the negative self-beliefs. Other than that I am still having plenty of dreams although they are less vivid now than they were during the first few days. Here's a bit of a weird one from last night. I was dreaming that I was no longer dreaming anymore. And I started to tell myself that because the dreams have stopped then the subliminal messages are no longer having any effect. Then I woke up and heard the familiar trickling stream and thought, oh shit, I was having a dream about not dreaming so I would stop listening. Strange stuff.
Days 1-5
Tiredness, anger, disillusionment and depression. Without a doubt this is probably the worst I have felt in a long time. I could barely talks to family and friends, it was as if I felt so depressed that I could not even put on a front. I was falling asleep randomly during the day out of sheer exhaustion. When I would wake up I was in a stunned state that was very difficult to snap out of. Started getting worried and thought about quitting the subliminal but I looked through the information here and decided to keep going. After all, something that makes me feel this bad must be doing something good.
Days 5-9
Noticing I am not as tired during the day especially after the 7th night of listening. Decided to stop listening during the day and only at night. Feeling happier and more connected with people. Old people are randomly approaching me and chatting for extended periods of time which was never the case. Feels like an emotional weight is lifted from my soul in a way. I notice I am not squinting as much anymore when in crowded places, I can open my eyes fully and can more easily make eye contact with people. I think it's because I am being less self-conscious and physically tightened up if you know what I mean. I was dealing with a woman today who seemed to have a few issues and I did not feel affected by the strange looks she gave me or her abrupt nature because I am feeling more confident and comfortable within myself. It's all hard to explain but things are working for me.
So it appears to be having a very positive influence in such a short amount if time. Kind of like warp-speed therapy lol. I am very happy for having found this place. I think I will work on this clearing process for a good amount of time and then purchase something, like an increased confidence that can build on a more solid foundation without all the negative self-beliefs. Other than that I am still having plenty of dreams although they are less vivid now than they were during the first few days. Here's a bit of a weird one from last night. I was dreaming that I was no longer dreaming anymore. And I started to tell myself that because the dreams have stopped then the subliminal messages are no longer having any effect. Then I woke up and heard the familiar trickling stream and thought, oh shit, I was having a dream about not dreaming so I would stop listening. Strange stuff.
