07-18-2018, 09:53 AM
Update: still running 3.2A. Not as consistently lately though. I'm finding it hard to get more than 3-4 loops per day in. My listening situation isn't optimal, I think I need new speakers.
I managed to get 7 loops in one day and I was just destroyed mentally. All I wanted to do was sleep.
Effects wise still nothing Externally. Internally I think I'm feeling some changes. I've always had social anxiety and sexual guilt and shame. Insecurity sexually and about myself in general. Regrets and anger because I never had the experiences that other guys were having.
Lately I feel like it's going away. A moment will happen where the negative emotions and feelings come up and take over my mind, and then once I calm down and process it I feel like it hurts a bit less than before. Even though I'm getting older and I can never go back and have the experiences I wanted.
I managed to get 7 loops in one day and I was just destroyed mentally. All I wanted to do was sleep.
Effects wise still nothing Externally. Internally I think I'm feeling some changes. I've always had social anxiety and sexual guilt and shame. Insecurity sexually and about myself in general. Regrets and anger because I never had the experiences that other guys were having.
Lately I feel like it's going away. A moment will happen where the negative emotions and feelings come up and take over my mind, and then once I calm down and process it I feel like it hurts a bit less than before. Even though I'm getting older and I can never go back and have the experiences I wanted.
