07-01-2018, 12:09 PM
Day 44
Still listening to AM6 refresher stage ultrasonic at night. For the past nine days I've been with the girl I was dating regularly. I met her when I was on DMSI 3.2B, she was very direct with me and her seduction process was as smooth as it could be. She flew to Germany to see me for my birthday and we spent nine days together in Germany, Belgium and Netherlands. I took it as a break from my current quest for women in Europe.
Overall it was an exhausting experience for me. I am an intensely private and introverted person, so being with a girl for nine straight days was quite intense. I've also never stayed with a girl for more than two days straight so it was a new experience for me. She was much more emotional and attention-draining than usual. On the plus side, sex was no problem, she was very horny everyday, initiating sex with me every single night and being very aggressive about it. We recorded a few saucy videos together. It was wild.
However it's not all rainbows and butterflies. I felt that I've lost my alpha edge in this trip. I think it has to do with not going to the gym for the past few weeks. I'm on a 2.5-month travel in Europe, so gymming regularly and eating all the protein I am supposed to eat has been impossible. As a result, I've lost a lot of muscle and therefore testosterone. I've felt the effect, I am less driven and horny these days. When my date was here, I felt the difference in my frame control. Back at home she was very submissive to me and I was in cruise control of the relationship. But in this trip, she was still submissive to me but in a lesser manner.
On my birthday two days ago, we went on a day trip to Amsterdam and did some weed and magic truffles. It was a really interesting experience. The weed in Amsterdam is reported to be stronger than usual and it's true. I got super depressed on it. I felt my drive and motivation going away and I got really scared. The truffles was really fun, colors were really wild and everything seemed to be in a dream. However I also felt my motivation going away from that, which made me scared in a way. It made me realize that I identify a lot with my drive and desires. When these are taken away from me, I felt like I lost myself and it scared the crap out of me.
My date also did it with me. The days after the truffles trip weren't great. Her emotions were pretty down. She spaced out a lot and got annoyed very easily. The dynamics between us changed completely, she was very high energy and enthusiastic about our relationship, now her energy is much lower and she was more snappy than usual. I didn't enjoy the last two days. Her personality and energy were recovering in the last day but they were not fully back yet before she left. I myself am still recovering my drive and enthusiasm. This truffle trip was not good on both of us.
I felt a huge wave of relief when she went back. I can use being alone for a while. I am off to Amsterdam tomorrow and I am going back to my original mission of working on my online business and gaming girls in Europe. To get back on track, I will spent the next day working and going to the gym.
Still listening to AM6 refresher stage ultrasonic at night. For the past nine days I've been with the girl I was dating regularly. I met her when I was on DMSI 3.2B, she was very direct with me and her seduction process was as smooth as it could be. She flew to Germany to see me for my birthday and we spent nine days together in Germany, Belgium and Netherlands. I took it as a break from my current quest for women in Europe.
Overall it was an exhausting experience for me. I am an intensely private and introverted person, so being with a girl for nine straight days was quite intense. I've also never stayed with a girl for more than two days straight so it was a new experience for me. She was much more emotional and attention-draining than usual. On the plus side, sex was no problem, she was very horny everyday, initiating sex with me every single night and being very aggressive about it. We recorded a few saucy videos together. It was wild.
However it's not all rainbows and butterflies. I felt that I've lost my alpha edge in this trip. I think it has to do with not going to the gym for the past few weeks. I'm on a 2.5-month travel in Europe, so gymming regularly and eating all the protein I am supposed to eat has been impossible. As a result, I've lost a lot of muscle and therefore testosterone. I've felt the effect, I am less driven and horny these days. When my date was here, I felt the difference in my frame control. Back at home she was very submissive to me and I was in cruise control of the relationship. But in this trip, she was still submissive to me but in a lesser manner.
On my birthday two days ago, we went on a day trip to Amsterdam and did some weed and magic truffles. It was a really interesting experience. The weed in Amsterdam is reported to be stronger than usual and it's true. I got super depressed on it. I felt my drive and motivation going away and I got really scared. The truffles was really fun, colors were really wild and everything seemed to be in a dream. However I also felt my motivation going away from that, which made me scared in a way. It made me realize that I identify a lot with my drive and desires. When these are taken away from me, I felt like I lost myself and it scared the crap out of me.
My date also did it with me. The days after the truffles trip weren't great. Her emotions were pretty down. She spaced out a lot and got annoyed very easily. The dynamics between us changed completely, she was very high energy and enthusiastic about our relationship, now her energy is much lower and she was more snappy than usual. I didn't enjoy the last two days. Her personality and energy were recovering in the last day but they were not fully back yet before she left. I myself am still recovering my drive and enthusiasm. This truffle trip was not good on both of us.
I felt a huge wave of relief when she went back. I can use being alone for a while. I am off to Amsterdam tomorrow and I am going back to my original mission of working on my online business and gaming girls in Europe. To get back on track, I will spent the next day working and going to the gym.
