Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[Shannon]

On a separate note, I do have a question Shannon. Is this certain part of me over fearing this or is it true that if you do get emotionally/physically close to someone they have a measure of "control" over you? Or is that just all in my mind? I remember you told Catman about his bad past experiences that he couldn't control the women who did such horriable things.. but he could control how he reacted to it. Does that same thing applies here? In the end can a person only hurt you, emotionally mostly, if you let them? Is that still within your control when your close to someone? Thanks in advance for any insight you can provide.

Getting into a relationship does nothing to give someone else control over you. Giving them any control over you is always a choice. That fear is not reality based.

And yes, the same thing applies here. You can only control and change yourself. And yes, nobody can hurt you if you don't let them. It's not easy to avoid without really understanding the process that results in that pain, but it is true.

By the way, it is my considered opinion that the entire trip was probably your way of executing DMSI. Here's why.

1. You were looking to improve yourself.
2. You chose to do so out of the US, where you could find attractive women who are nopt raised in a society that results in beliefs and attitudes that previously caused you pain.
3. YOU SELF SABOTAGED THE FIRST TICKET.
4. YOU ENDED UP WITH A LONG TERM GIRLFRIEND WHO SURVIVED YOUR FEAR BASED REACTIONS, and is very sexual and open sexually.

DMSI runs in your head about 35 days in v3.2, but once you stop that, it runs in your head as natural programming if it has become your natural programming.

Now considering how badly you were treated by American women, does this seem like a reasonable way for DMSI to achieve it's goals to you?