03-09-2012, 12:51 PM
(03-09-2012, 12:15 PM)RainbowAbyss Wrote:(03-07-2012, 04:14 PM)K-Train Wrote:Shannon Wrote:The cockiness, etc. that's a little bit of the "I'm out of the cage, lets have some FUN!" mentality that sometimes comes along with ASC.
This was what Shannon had stated about 4 months ago, around December. I agree wholeheartedly with it. The world is opening to me more and more. My speech is more intelligent, I can articulate myself better and because I'm no longer debating my self in my head I can better focus on the situation.
Cortez said that 95% of all posts on these boards is related to women...well lately women have really been on my mind and the caged animal that's been inside me has been rearing to let loose! I was conversating with a female friend of mine (she's a Sagittarius, passionate, aggressive in speech) and I could tell she was certaintly digging the convo. I was cocky, I was intelligent, my sexual undertones were thrown in perfectly...my game was 100%.I was worried (briefly) maybe I would become too confident, but I'll deal with that as it comes. Hell, I'd rather go into AM/SM/whatever with a lot of confidence rather than zilch and have to go through all that depressing resistance.
I think you made a really smart choice doing these two subs together for 60 days. I think they will really 'prime' you for AM/SM-especially SM as it sounds like you've got all the things going on, in yourself, that I am missing at nearing the end of stage 4 SM. There is a kind of Alpha confidence in these set but its very different then ASC or regular straight forward confidence, IDK how to explain it, and the positive and powerful states it sounds like your building up should definitely buffer from depressing resistance.
Thanks Rainbow
. Yeah, it took a while but the effects definitely kicked in big time. I really just did not want to have to go through the severe depression I felt last time running through AM. Stages 3-4 in particulary sucked so badly I'm amazed I made it through the set. For some reason, I've been experiencing the same tiredness you commented about in your journal. Hopefully it dissipates. Are you going to run through AM again Rainbow or are you gonna experiment with some of the other subs?
