04-01-2018, 01:06 PM
well, actually been feeling a lot better lately. I have noticed a few internal things that happened been major shifts to me personally:
Staying at home: I've noticed a lot more discontent at staying at home most of the time so I think I'm going to be trying to figure out things I can do to go out more. Interestingly enough I'm actually finding it more interesting to be out and about with people.This is a big change from before and I somewhat like it. I just need to figure out how what hobbies I should take up in order to get out the house more.
Fear: I think it has been majorly dealt with in a significant way. I finally realized that fear is not good and not objective at all. It can screw with your sense of objectively in that it makes things seem more dangerous or bad than they are. It can even keep you from taking advantage of opportunities that present themselves or even not recognize them as opportunities to begin with. I think it was mentioned before that very successful people usual see opportunities where other people see a lost cause or something not even worth it due to their fear. I'm happy to say that due to all this I think my PTSD has been dealt with. I haven't had symptom pop up in like 2-3 days now. I will of course keep up with the sub to make sure this is a permanent recovery and it lasts.
"Not Caring": Hmm originally, I was worried about this and still might think this might be a issue that might need to be addressed but I'm starting to look at it from another perspective. As in maybe the reason I'm finding this so weird is because we have been indoctrinated as men by society at large to be the ones always interested in sex and the ones that always have to pursue. It could be said to some degree in a relationship that the one that cares the least is usually the one that has the most power because they can leave at anytime and not think about it much after all where as the one that cares the most has a harder time leaving a bad deal. Its seems to help you with not putting up with BS, time wasters, or drama queens either because your not that invested in the first place so you don't have much to lose. Though I do feel this does need to be properly calibrate because as I'm seeing it right now it might cause the aura not to snipe that many women because you just don't care.
Social Anxiety: There is none at all. If I'm talking to someone and theres a pause in the conversation I don't dwell on it much and at those times I don't feel any fear. I might feel a mild "discomfort" for like a sec but nothing else. Usually I find something to talk about soon afterwards and rather quickly because I'm not in my head thinking of what to talk about. I actually thought about that time yesterday when some random guy came up to me and started talking to me. I actually had a decent conversation with him and at no point was I in my head. I actually felt at ease and kept the conversation going. It was entertaining actually.
Planning for the future: I've actually been looking at a lot of stuff recently and financial investments I can do once I get the six figure job I'm aiming for. At this moment I'm planning on maybe working at that job, and doing some investments for the next 2-5 years then moving out of the country. I'm looking at mainly east Asia at the moment. Mainly countries I'm looking at are Thailand, and the Philippines. If I choose a western country though I'm looking at primarily New Zealand and "maybe" Australia though with Australia I'm not too sure seeing as I've heard SJWism/Feminism is getting pretty big over there. I'm looking at mainly the third world because I want to afford a higher standard of living and have a better social life than in the states at the moment. Also I see East Asia being more economically successful in the future than a lot of western coutnries at this time. Along those lines I'm also thinking of moving because I have to face it the US had its time. With the amount of money printing the US Fed has been doing there is no recovery really after all that. Sooner or later there is going to be a high amount of inflation due to all this and just recently I read China is planning on buying its imported oil with the Yuan instead of US dollars. Many countries are already planning to do the same so this idea that the US can just keep the petro dollar forever is just faulty to me. Lastly, this 9-5 job BS we have in the states just isn't for me. I want to actually enjoy my life and not spend my entire time working up some corporate later.
Overall, really liking the internal results so far. Just hoping I will get to the point where I start seeing more sexual type external results from women. Hopefully, something will change by like the 30 day mark.
Staying at home: I've noticed a lot more discontent at staying at home most of the time so I think I'm going to be trying to figure out things I can do to go out more. Interestingly enough I'm actually finding it more interesting to be out and about with people.This is a big change from before and I somewhat like it. I just need to figure out how what hobbies I should take up in order to get out the house more.
Fear: I think it has been majorly dealt with in a significant way. I finally realized that fear is not good and not objective at all. It can screw with your sense of objectively in that it makes things seem more dangerous or bad than they are. It can even keep you from taking advantage of opportunities that present themselves or even not recognize them as opportunities to begin with. I think it was mentioned before that very successful people usual see opportunities where other people see a lost cause or something not even worth it due to their fear. I'm happy to say that due to all this I think my PTSD has been dealt with. I haven't had symptom pop up in like 2-3 days now. I will of course keep up with the sub to make sure this is a permanent recovery and it lasts.
"Not Caring": Hmm originally, I was worried about this and still might think this might be a issue that might need to be addressed but I'm starting to look at it from another perspective. As in maybe the reason I'm finding this so weird is because we have been indoctrinated as men by society at large to be the ones always interested in sex and the ones that always have to pursue. It could be said to some degree in a relationship that the one that cares the least is usually the one that has the most power because they can leave at anytime and not think about it much after all where as the one that cares the most has a harder time leaving a bad deal. Its seems to help you with not putting up with BS, time wasters, or drama queens either because your not that invested in the first place so you don't have much to lose. Though I do feel this does need to be properly calibrate because as I'm seeing it right now it might cause the aura not to snipe that many women because you just don't care.
Social Anxiety: There is none at all. If I'm talking to someone and theres a pause in the conversation I don't dwell on it much and at those times I don't feel any fear. I might feel a mild "discomfort" for like a sec but nothing else. Usually I find something to talk about soon afterwards and rather quickly because I'm not in my head thinking of what to talk about. I actually thought about that time yesterday when some random guy came up to me and started talking to me. I actually had a decent conversation with him and at no point was I in my head. I actually felt at ease and kept the conversation going. It was entertaining actually.
Planning for the future: I've actually been looking at a lot of stuff recently and financial investments I can do once I get the six figure job I'm aiming for. At this moment I'm planning on maybe working at that job, and doing some investments for the next 2-5 years then moving out of the country. I'm looking at mainly east Asia at the moment. Mainly countries I'm looking at are Thailand, and the Philippines. If I choose a western country though I'm looking at primarily New Zealand and "maybe" Australia though with Australia I'm not too sure seeing as I've heard SJWism/Feminism is getting pretty big over there. I'm looking at mainly the third world because I want to afford a higher standard of living and have a better social life than in the states at the moment. Also I see East Asia being more economically successful in the future than a lot of western coutnries at this time. Along those lines I'm also thinking of moving because I have to face it the US had its time. With the amount of money printing the US Fed has been doing there is no recovery really after all that. Sooner or later there is going to be a high amount of inflation due to all this and just recently I read China is planning on buying its imported oil with the Yuan instead of US dollars. Many countries are already planning to do the same so this idea that the US can just keep the petro dollar forever is just faulty to me. Lastly, this 9-5 job BS we have in the states just isn't for me. I want to actually enjoy my life and not spend my entire time working up some corporate later.
Overall, really liking the internal results so far. Just hoping I will get to the point where I start seeing more sexual type external results from women. Hopefully, something will change by like the 30 day mark.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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