03-15-2018, 12:02 AM
DMSI 3.2 B Day 21
Today when I was with one of my more attractive clients who I see once a week I felt more relaxed and sexy in her presence than usual. She is married, but I always thought she had a bit of a thing for me. Today she seemed to respond to me even more than normal. Shes always flirty with me, but it seemed up a notch today. She was staring at me more, gave me butt and chest presentations, and was going up and down with her hand on her monster can like she was stroking it off at one point lol. I felt the most relaxed and smooth when talking to her today than I possibly ever have.
The weird thing is when shes left and i was back to regular ol life I reverted back to my usual self. More self conscious, in my head, not as relaxed or fluid with words. A bit frustrating, but I realize big change is a process and it takes time.
I am notoriously not the best sleeper, but my sleep has been much better as of late. Im falling asleep quicker, waking up less, and sleeping for longer than normal. This has translated into me feeling less tired during the day and my lifts in the gym improving(flexes cannonball biceps) I think less overall electronic stimulation might be partly why im sleeping better. I haven't watched much tv at all since starting 3.2 and am on social media and my phone much less. Basically just mostly using my computer for productive activities.
Another thing ive noticed lately is I will have spells of irritability where I just want to keep to myself and be left alone. Noticed this around the first week of use as well.
Also for the first time since starting 3.2 ive been getting bouts of horniness where I go into visualizing having sex with some of the more attractive females I know(like my client from today). Its only happened a few times and it doesn't last very long however. Still have kept to no masturbation or porn use during the run.
These last two days ive noticed my motivation dip for the first time during this run with 3.2. Ive been all about kicking ass and taking names with my goals for the most part since I started, but these last two days I left a few of my daily goals unchecked. I realize you cant always be perfect and its not like I was a complete unproductive mess or anything. Just a few things I didn't get done cause I didn't want to muster up the emotional energy to make it happen.
Ive been contemplating whether I should stick to version B after this 30 days is up or give A a shot. Part of me likes the idea of the B mentality. Just doing whatever it takes to make this shit happen and achieve the design goal. Perhaps version A would be a better fit for me though and my subconscious might better cooperate with it. I dont know. I will definitely give it some more thought though and see what happens by the end of these 30 days before I make my final decision.
Today when I was with one of my more attractive clients who I see once a week I felt more relaxed and sexy in her presence than usual. She is married, but I always thought she had a bit of a thing for me. Today she seemed to respond to me even more than normal. Shes always flirty with me, but it seemed up a notch today. She was staring at me more, gave me butt and chest presentations, and was going up and down with her hand on her monster can like she was stroking it off at one point lol. I felt the most relaxed and smooth when talking to her today than I possibly ever have.
The weird thing is when shes left and i was back to regular ol life I reverted back to my usual self. More self conscious, in my head, not as relaxed or fluid with words. A bit frustrating, but I realize big change is a process and it takes time.
I am notoriously not the best sleeper, but my sleep has been much better as of late. Im falling asleep quicker, waking up less, and sleeping for longer than normal. This has translated into me feeling less tired during the day and my lifts in the gym improving(flexes cannonball biceps) I think less overall electronic stimulation might be partly why im sleeping better. I haven't watched much tv at all since starting 3.2 and am on social media and my phone much less. Basically just mostly using my computer for productive activities.
Another thing ive noticed lately is I will have spells of irritability where I just want to keep to myself and be left alone. Noticed this around the first week of use as well.
Also for the first time since starting 3.2 ive been getting bouts of horniness where I go into visualizing having sex with some of the more attractive females I know(like my client from today). Its only happened a few times and it doesn't last very long however. Still have kept to no masturbation or porn use during the run.
These last two days ive noticed my motivation dip for the first time during this run with 3.2. Ive been all about kicking ass and taking names with my goals for the most part since I started, but these last two days I left a few of my daily goals unchecked. I realize you cant always be perfect and its not like I was a complete unproductive mess or anything. Just a few things I didn't get done cause I didn't want to muster up the emotional energy to make it happen.
Ive been contemplating whether I should stick to version B after this 30 days is up or give A a shot. Part of me likes the idea of the B mentality. Just doing whatever it takes to make this shit happen and achieve the design goal. Perhaps version A would be a better fit for me though and my subconscious might better cooperate with it. I dont know. I will definitely give it some more thought though and see what happens by the end of these 30 days before I make my final decision.
