02-27-2012, 07:58 PM
About 40 days on ASC and US. The effects have been up and down due to pockets of resistance. This weekend, I went down to south florida on a trip with some friends and had a blast. I also wore some P83 but I still felt like most of my actions were naturally. Managed to get a number from one of the girls I remembered at last year's trip and hand another girl (very attractive) grind her boobs on back repeatedly.
Not a bad trip I must say lol.
I feel like this combo is a set all on its own. Although my confidence is much more solid and authentic there are still visions of past times when I wasn't confident. Those images and events flash and then are followed by my own shame/anger at me not being more vocal and confident. It's the same with Ultra-Success. While listening to Ultra-Success I remember the missed opportunities in my life, the times where I could have accomplished so much had I simply pulled the trigger and went for it, the times when I sabotaged myself in relationships and other things. But I acknowledge that they happened and realize that I have an opportunity to achieve what I want right now by making the right decisions.
All these events continue to urge me forward. So far, I have remained immune to any outside influences that would normally make me abandon my combo and I have remained quite consistent with my daily exposure. My subconsious detects this though. I can tell that there is a part of me that is a bit uneasy about the idea of me becoming unshakably confident and successful. I say this because normally at this benchmark my mind tries to find ways to derail me but perhaps my subconsious has finally begun to fully yield...
Not a bad trip I must say lol.I feel like this combo is a set all on its own. Although my confidence is much more solid and authentic there are still visions of past times when I wasn't confident. Those images and events flash and then are followed by my own shame/anger at me not being more vocal and confident. It's the same with Ultra-Success. While listening to Ultra-Success I remember the missed opportunities in my life, the times where I could have accomplished so much had I simply pulled the trigger and went for it, the times when I sabotaged myself in relationships and other things. But I acknowledge that they happened and realize that I have an opportunity to achieve what I want right now by making the right decisions.
All these events continue to urge me forward. So far, I have remained immune to any outside influences that would normally make me abandon my combo and I have remained quite consistent with my daily exposure. My subconsious detects this though. I can tell that there is a part of me that is a bit uneasy about the idea of me becoming unshakably confident and successful. I say this because normally at this benchmark my mind tries to find ways to derail me but perhaps my subconsious has finally begun to fully yield...
