DMSI 3.2 B Day 10
Went out to a friends that was having a little grill out get together today. I got the chance to explain to most of my friends that I wouldn't be partaking in any drinking any longer. They were all really cool about it. I honestly thought there might be some acting of "eh whatever" like I wasn't really serious about it or them being bummed out, but they were all really supportive and thought it was real cool that I was doing that for myself. I think part of the reason why is because I explained to them my genuine reasons for doing it, how I felt about the whole thing, and the fact that I would still be coming out to hang with everyone despite not drinking. I would have stuck to my guns on it regardless, but it definitely felt good knowing my friends wholeheartedly had my back in the matter.
There were only 3 girls over there and they were all my friends gfs, but definitely got some iois from then. Lots of laughs from them and them all smiles and giggly when talking to me. Nothing really crazy or out of the ordinary though. One big thing I did notice though is even though I didn't have a drop of alcohol I honestly felt more relaxed and in the flow than even when ive had a fair amount to drink. Conversations just felt a lot more natural and smooth and I had a more general relaxed feeling about me than normal. I feel like im starting to get out of my head and be able to be more of myself. Still felt some self consciousness/anxiety at times, but I really love the direction this is heading. Im not sure if its from any specific effect from dmsi, the fact that ive kept up with cutting out/down all my negative habits like binging on netlfix, being on social media all the time/ looking at my phone every 5 seconds ect(which was likely pushed by dmsi) or possibly a combo of the two, but fuck it ill take it.
Went out to a friends that was having a little grill out get together today. I got the chance to explain to most of my friends that I wouldn't be partaking in any drinking any longer. They were all really cool about it. I honestly thought there might be some acting of "eh whatever" like I wasn't really serious about it or them being bummed out, but they were all really supportive and thought it was real cool that I was doing that for myself. I think part of the reason why is because I explained to them my genuine reasons for doing it, how I felt about the whole thing, and the fact that I would still be coming out to hang with everyone despite not drinking. I would have stuck to my guns on it regardless, but it definitely felt good knowing my friends wholeheartedly had my back in the matter.
There were only 3 girls over there and they were all my friends gfs, but definitely got some iois from then. Lots of laughs from them and them all smiles and giggly when talking to me. Nothing really crazy or out of the ordinary though. One big thing I did notice though is even though I didn't have a drop of alcohol I honestly felt more relaxed and in the flow than even when ive had a fair amount to drink. Conversations just felt a lot more natural and smooth and I had a more general relaxed feeling about me than normal. I feel like im starting to get out of my head and be able to be more of myself. Still felt some self consciousness/anxiety at times, but I really love the direction this is heading. Im not sure if its from any specific effect from dmsi, the fact that ive kept up with cutting out/down all my negative habits like binging on netlfix, being on social media all the time/ looking at my phone every 5 seconds ect(which was likely pushed by dmsi) or possibly a combo of the two, but fuck it ill take it.
