02-06-2018, 11:46 AM
The abstract answer would be to dig for the core of this. Who was the first that triggered you that way in what kind of situation. Probably your siblings in some way. Only you know.
That is one step in dissolving this. Dig up the core by going through layer upon layer upon layer that accumulated around this first event.
Another step is facing it when you get triggered and accept it. Only then can you step away from being triggered and react calmly. Identifying the way you normally react to it and doing something radically different as reaction (even if you are afraid) helps. That's how you gradually break the feedback loop.
You cannot really classify this healing/clearing into 'the sub takes care of it on its own' vs. 'it will force me to' vs. 'i need to do it on my own'. Either one of them is right. They are intertwined. Subliminals are just spoken text. How can words force you, do something for you, etc.?
You are at a point where you can clearly look at the triggering and identify it. That is immense progress to blindly reacting. The next step will be some kind of unique reaction from you that either comes to you as an afterthought or you simply do it without consciously thinking. Is that the sub doing things on its own or you coming up with a possible solution to a problem of yours that you spend great focus on?
Those things do take time. I can totally relate to the feeling of urgency and wanting to get rid of this stuff instantly. But that is not how this works. That is why I suggested that you take a different route of reacting. The best would be to try out two or five or ten completely different approaches. Because the more different routes of reaction you take, the more your standard reactions will be relativized and the emotional bond to those specific reactions will be weakened and finally be dissolved.
At least that is what I have come to believe myself over time.
Dissolving the first big emotional block took me several months of sub use and contemplation (from time to time). Well, and the occasional over-the-top outburst
That is one step in dissolving this. Dig up the core by going through layer upon layer upon layer that accumulated around this first event.
Another step is facing it when you get triggered and accept it. Only then can you step away from being triggered and react calmly. Identifying the way you normally react to it and doing something radically different as reaction (even if you are afraid) helps. That's how you gradually break the feedback loop.
You cannot really classify this healing/clearing into 'the sub takes care of it on its own' vs. 'it will force me to' vs. 'i need to do it on my own'. Either one of them is right. They are intertwined. Subliminals are just spoken text. How can words force you, do something for you, etc.?
You are at a point where you can clearly look at the triggering and identify it. That is immense progress to blindly reacting. The next step will be some kind of unique reaction from you that either comes to you as an afterthought or you simply do it without consciously thinking. Is that the sub doing things on its own or you coming up with a possible solution to a problem of yours that you spend great focus on?
Those things do take time. I can totally relate to the feeling of urgency and wanting to get rid of this stuff instantly. But that is not how this works. That is why I suggested that you take a different route of reacting. The best would be to try out two or five or ten completely different approaches. Because the more different routes of reaction you take, the more your standard reactions will be relativized and the emotional bond to those specific reactions will be weakened and finally be dissolved.
At least that is what I have come to believe myself over time.
Dissolving the first big emotional block took me several months of sub use and contemplation (from time to time). Well, and the occasional over-the-top outburst
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