Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Yep.. the SJW stuff is getting out of control. Luckily the only place I really see it is online, mainly on facebook and it does my head in enough so I try to limit my exposure now.

But the thought of working in an office or going to a university where these idiots are everywhere sounds horrible.

Yeah, its really bad at the moment. Once upon a time the universities might have been a place of thought provoking discussion and where you could probably grow by having your views challenged but not anymore, at least in the U.S. I don't know if things are just as bad in in Australian or European universities but its pretty darn awful here. I might still attend and finish up my degree just to get it and have a easier time but if I can do it without the degree that would be much better for me mentally. I don't think I will get brainwashed or anything but having to sit in a class and listen to a bunch of people straight out of highschool, who barely know anything of how the real world works, sprout off nonsense about how it is or think they should shutdown people who don't agree with them is starting to grate on my nerves.

For example, in L.A. there was a women who attended a protest and marched all the way until she tried to block a highway in protest. You read right, not a intersection, a highway. Needless to say she got hit by a car. Instead of learning her lesson she is now suing the university for "not stopping herself from protesting" at the highway. Please, had they stopped her she would have claimed that they were preventing her from expressing her right to free speech. Its like you can't win with these people, they want you to take responsibility for their bad/stupid decisions.

With that out of the way something interesting did happen last night and it contains a component of the dreams I've been having that I didn't mention in the last post. This dream actually has great emotional significance for me so that's why i'm telling it. Essentially, in it I ended up visiting one of the Petty Officers ,who was over me during Navy bootcamp, at his home. I saw his wife and many of his kids running around. We ended up going to another room because I wanted to tell him something personal about my experience in the Navy. The thing you should know about this guy is that his personality was practically like that of Logan played by Hugh Jackman. Pretty straightforward and kind of bad ass. Though he had other things like him frequently cheating on his wife with someone else (mind you I don't put much idea in monogamy myself though I believe if you don't believe in it you should be honest about it).
Usually not a very sympathetic guy by any means.

Anyway, I told him about my bad experiences and even the fact that I had thought about suicide while I was in. I literally felt myself (inside and outside the dream) feeling intense sadness and grief. Surprisingly when I looked at him his eyes were full sympathy and compassion. He actually told me he had changed. He wasn't running around with other women anymore, was dedicated to his family and good causes now. It kind of showed because there was something different in his demeanor and the way he carried himself now. I felt some kind of release about this whole thing for some reason. Now right after this release his older daughter, who I hadn't seen up to this pointed, walked in the room. I think everything before this point was the healing/clearing in DMSI and then this next part has to do with the main part of executing the script. She walks in the room and I notice how hot and beautiful she is. I start getting turned on and she looks down at my pelvic region.

Within seconds I can tell shes interested in me and says, "Can I help you with Anything" in a sexy voice. I kind of decline shyly but she doesn't get turned off by it and simply walks out the room. I turn to him and he actually seems like he would approve of me dating his daughter. I wake up at this point. Once thing I noticed in this dream and has been a recurring thing is the fact that often I will on some level know i'm dreaming and then I will toss and turn in order to wake myself up (usually during uncomfortable parts). Despite myself feeling a certain part of me trying frantically to wake myself up its like something is keeping me from escaping the dream until something is dealt with (Could be "The Wall" component i'm guessing). After everything is done I will quickly bolt up in my bed after waking up.

I felt a good amount of emotional release after that dream and I felt like one of the ideas is that people can change. Some of those people that I previously hated could have changed or not and I may never know. Point is there's no point in hold on to the hate and anger. I've actually turned to looking at the positive times I've had during my service instead of the negative now for the past couple of hours. Don't know why but this feels significant.