Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Thought I would make a small update. Something is going on but I can't quite put my finger on it.

First off I'm still pretty much porn free for like 3-4 weeks now. I find that interesting because I know on 3.1 when I would get horny I would indulge because I wasn't getting the results I wanted and all that pent up sexual energy would make me want to find a release. This is good seeing as I use to watch it at least once or twice a day. To slowly loose interest and then out right not wanting to watch it is a very good improvement.

Another thing I have noticed is the dreams. I don't remember having so many dreams before (that I remember anyway). They now happen every night and I have 1 or 2 every night now. In general my mood has been very good for the past 2 weeks or so as well. It has ranged from above average to really good. With that said I have noticed a very pronounce change for a couple of mins after I wake up. I feel remarkably different for those first 15 mins after I wake up. It's like I have some type of motivation to act on something that I need to get done (on a variety of issues). For example, I woke up this morning automatically realizing I need to do more with my life. After having the tab on my browser open for like a week now on the site to sign up for re-certificating myself in IT I finally had this push this morning. I ended up setting up the date for my most basic certification in like 2 weeks from now. After that I'm hoping to get like 3+ more certifications before summer so I make myself very marketable for very lucrative jobs (six figures).

This combined with starting up university classes has made me realize that university overall is not for me. I'm finding myself not motivated to be there while sitting in class and I realize why. Unless your in certain fields (science related, engineering, computer science, etc) SJW garbage has totally ruined most departments. It becomes less about learning actual good skills and critically thinking and more about this "men are bad", "feel good" (unless your a man of course), and "be compassionate" (unless your part of a certain group) garbage. As some of you know I live in California so your definitely going to get the worst of it here. I don't feel like I'm really learning anything at all. Luckily for me Directing and acting don't necessarily require a degree. So I'm highly considering leaving after this semester, use my IT experience/Certifications to get a good job, and then on the side do some directing gigs and acting auditions to see if I can get my foot in the door that way.

If DMSI final delivers or even 3.2 delivers to a high degree then it shouldn't be hard. If that DMSI aura can work its magic during a audition then I'm sure to get noticed and most likely get the job. I had read a study a while back about how the most singular unfair advantage a person can have in promotions is actually attractiveness. The study concluded that attractive people (male and females) are more like to get promotions, get hired, paid more, etc. If I can get that advantage due to the aura, especially if its a female giving the interview or audition, then I think have this in the bag. Getting back to the college thing at this point its like if people ask me I just tell them unless they are going into a field not infected with this garbage they should just go into a trade or work on certifications in a IT field. After being in the military for a couple of years knowing how the real world works then going into college to find them teaching kids a illusion of how the world works is just mind boggling. Many of this kids are going to leave that safe bubble and really struggle because of this nonsense.

This does make me realize now why you have certain businesses (mainly in entertainment) prioritize this SJW nonsense over profits now. Those people were probably brainwashed into this stuff and its only after loosing huge amounts of profits that they realize that businesses run on profits not SJW nonsense (though I have the feeling that some of them are going to have to go bankrupt before they realize that lesson). If I do go back to college sometime in the future I think I'm going the online class route because from my experience they don't peddle in this stuff.

The second to last thing I have noticed is that I've been in these lucid states a lot more often now. Its been happening like every other night. During these I will either see something played out or I might have random images flashing in my minds eye that are very real like. Not sure what any of this means but that and the very frequent dreams is a very recent phenomenon. Last Decided to get back in the gym and starting going on another cycle (Testosterone, seeing as I think my natural production is going down). Now, I've been on T cycles before and I have never really felt any psychological differences. The only think I've noticed on the multiple of cycles I've been on before is better sleepy and maybe being slightly more horny. Now though I'm experience more psychological effects for some reason now. I'm finding that I want to act more aggressive and I actually feel good being that way. Another effect is this confidence boost (was already there due to TID but now is much higher) and IDGAF attitude. The only thing I can think of is TID giving more Alpha characteristics and the added "T" increasing those affects because I have never had these effects on "T" alone.

Anyway, that's about all that's been happening so far. A whole bunch of strangeness going on and people engaging me more for no reason as well.