Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Hello all

Thought I would give an update since some interesting things have happened. I decided to miss like 2 days to see what would happen and it was interesting. Some of the things in the past did come up but with a twist. It seemed like the only thing that bothered me about them were the Guilt and shame concerning the event, not the fear. I think this validates Shannon's assertion that guilt, shame, and fear are the primary things that cause resistance. At least the good news is that the fear component of any of these issues are dealt with. Therefore, that only leaves the guilt and shame left. Therefore that pretty much points to me doing OGSF next. It will re-enforce the overcome fear concepts I have picked up and will introduce G/S being dealt with. Unfortunately due to some financial delays because of the Veteran's affairs office I will have to wait to get started on that (Literally taking them 30 days on average to process claims at the moment, ugh).

Other things to mention is one con I have noticed. Since I've gotten rid of how I deal with fear its like I've gotten much lazier with my college assignments. I am not "afraid" of the consequences anymore for not doing stuff so there is that aspect I have to deal with now. I now have to find a way to be motivated by something else that isn't fear of the consequences. For the mean time I picked up listening again after seeing what would happen if I didn't. Noticed automatically that within 20 mins I became much happier and full of love and joy. I did notice something else amazing and probably bodes well for the aura in the DMSI series. I had done internal martial arts (Tai chi, Bagua, Ying-yi) and Qui-gong meditation to varying degrees in the past. I had done the whole Chi moving excises and trying to feel the chi in your body. Never really had much success with that in the past. Well, I was thinking of something for a story I am going to write and found something amazing. Pretty much what happened was I was thinking of a certain training/mediation scene I was working on. I noticed something was kind of weird so randomly I tried on focusing on energy being drawn to the soles of my feet. To my amazement I automatically felt energy being pulled to my feet. I felt a tingly sensation along with energy from all over my body being pulled to this location. I did this with other parts of the body and even felt jolts of energy in the lower Dantian. It would seem from my observation that overcoming fear has allowed my Aura to heal and me to amateurishly have a certain amount of control over the energy in my body. I find this to be interesting seeing as I did not foresee this as a side effect of losing the huge amounts of fear that I had.

Either way, that is all I have to report for now. Will continue running this sub like I said until I can get ready to run OGSF. After that it will be either E2 again to re-enforce the concepts found in OGSF or back to running 3.1 to see how I fair this time around. Either way, can't wait til 3.2 comes out because I have a good feeling that after I'm pretty much cleared I will be getting some amazing results this time around.