10-19-2017, 08:40 PM
Day 69,
Wow, I've made a leap in my guitar fretboard visualization skills, which translated to easier playing, and smoother faster scales. This is a decently big deal, and it will affect certain elements of my playing, namely, improvisation. For songs that are already tabbed out, it won't make that big of a difference.
I must have practiced 3-4 hours today; that time FLEW by.
It feels as though all of my 'Alpha Male' training has worn off; I'm not very assertive, and I'm a pretty soft spoken guy, MOST of the time. There are moments when I'm relaxed and funny (and my comedy is getting better), but a large portion of the time, I feel this nervous weight across my chest and shoulders. I've been finding myself with my shoulders hoisted up most of the time.
I find myself thinking about money a lot; it's not necessarily because I'm broke; far from it. Before moving up to this new city, I considered the idea of throwing a huge percentage of my take-home pay into savings. Just over 35%, to be precise. However, since I'm attending this 2-day conference near the end of the month, plus AirBnB, plus gas, plus parking, plus food, etc... my spending is eating into these savings. Since I've already paid for the conference and the hotel, I'm almost in the "red" (meaning eating into that 35%). This is not a terrible problem, but it is a potential one, especially since I could be in some ongoing emergency in the future, without knowing how to come up with the extra money.
But, I am off work 3 days a week, and so, worse comes to worst, I can pick up an extra job. My plan for right now is to walk this path until I can run DMSI, and then, I run BASE repeatedly until I've generated enough income streams for what I want. Then, I won't be worried.
Honestly, it's a lot of stressing over the numbers on my Excel spreadsheet. Also, a lot of my current expenses, including gas, has been tax-deductible, meaning that I don't need to give as much money for taxes, AND, I've entered this higher paying job partway into the year, so I will not have hit the higher income bracket, meaning that I'll have all sorts more money than expected after tax season.
Wow, I've made a leap in my guitar fretboard visualization skills, which translated to easier playing, and smoother faster scales. This is a decently big deal, and it will affect certain elements of my playing, namely, improvisation. For songs that are already tabbed out, it won't make that big of a difference.
I must have practiced 3-4 hours today; that time FLEW by.
It feels as though all of my 'Alpha Male' training has worn off; I'm not very assertive, and I'm a pretty soft spoken guy, MOST of the time. There are moments when I'm relaxed and funny (and my comedy is getting better), but a large portion of the time, I feel this nervous weight across my chest and shoulders. I've been finding myself with my shoulders hoisted up most of the time.
I find myself thinking about money a lot; it's not necessarily because I'm broke; far from it. Before moving up to this new city, I considered the idea of throwing a huge percentage of my take-home pay into savings. Just over 35%, to be precise. However, since I'm attending this 2-day conference near the end of the month, plus AirBnB, plus gas, plus parking, plus food, etc... my spending is eating into these savings. Since I've already paid for the conference and the hotel, I'm almost in the "red" (meaning eating into that 35%). This is not a terrible problem, but it is a potential one, especially since I could be in some ongoing emergency in the future, without knowing how to come up with the extra money.
But, I am off work 3 days a week, and so, worse comes to worst, I can pick up an extra job. My plan for right now is to walk this path until I can run DMSI, and then, I run BASE repeatedly until I've generated enough income streams for what I want. Then, I won't be worried.
Honestly, it's a lot of stressing over the numbers on my Excel spreadsheet. Also, a lot of my current expenses, including gas, has been tax-deductible, meaning that I don't need to give as much money for taxes, AND, I've entered this higher paying job partway into the year, so I will not have hit the higher income bracket, meaning that I'll have all sorts more money than expected after tax season.
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