01-12-2012, 01:20 PM
Greetings again everyone! Decided to go ahead and restart this journal now that I've gotten my Ultra Success custom. For about 2 and half weeks I'd been using the Large Breasted Lover sub, basically because it has literally been 2 years since I've had any kind of sexual activity. I felt the pressure creeping in so much to have sex that I gave in. For the past couple weeks I've struggled with my current status: young, single, still living at home, in college, and the drought sex wise has started wreaking havoc. I kept using school as an excuse, because my major is challenging and requires dedication but it still sucks to be single...at least single and not having fun 
.
Thus, I decided to quit procrastinating and start using my ASC and US customs. Last night I told myself I would have to start making some changes. I've felt soooo socially awkward these past few weeks, almost night and day from how I felt last year when I was doing the Alpha Set. I feel as if I have regressed since then. I'm not as independent or Alpha as I was back then, though the qualities are still there, I've become a little too worried about what others think...definitely not what want but I understand that these changes I want to make will not happen overnight.
I'm planning on doing this combo for at least 60 days, maybe 90. I feel like right now I could really use a boost, and I'm thinking about most likely getting back on AM afterward however I'm hoping to have the effects of these customs sink in properly so that I'll be able to carry on the mindset into the future.
.Thus, I decided to quit procrastinating and start using my ASC and US customs. Last night I told myself I would have to start making some changes. I've felt soooo socially awkward these past few weeks, almost night and day from how I felt last year when I was doing the Alpha Set. I feel as if I have regressed since then. I'm not as independent or Alpha as I was back then, though the qualities are still there, I've become a little too worried about what others think...definitely not what want but I understand that these changes I want to make will not happen overnight.
I'm planning on doing this combo for at least 60 days, maybe 90. I feel like right now I could really use a boost, and I'm thinking about most likely getting back on AM afterward however I'm hoping to have the effects of these customs sink in properly so that I'll be able to carry on the mindset into the future.
