05-08-2017, 07:33 PM
Yeah, I don't quite understand whats going on with this version. At first I really liked it but as soon as I try to take any prospects go anywhere it goes all down hill. Its like the reality bending and manifestation works well when its just me getting really good IOIs but as soon as it tries to go anymore beyond that my subconscious just says, "oh, can't have anymore than that" and the whole thing goes to hell. Before in other versions the resistence was more subtle but with this one its just so obvious for some reason. I think I'm just so frustrated because I'm coming off a weekend where this happened twice! One girl ended up not talking to me over something really stupid and another (the LDS target I mentioned) just totally got cold feet and wants nothing else to do with me anymore. This is literally just one day after she was having a good conversation with me and offering to buy me a coffee.
I did notice something though today. When I was in a very bad mood because of the above mentioned things its like the aura activated for some reason. My old beliefs came back somewhat and I just had this "fuck them" attitude towards all women. Like I literally didn't give a crap about any of them that I saw then all of a sudden I start seeing IOIs again but since (1) I don't give a shit at the moment therefore i didn't pursue any of them, and (2) I didn't pursue any of them because it was like "whats the point as soon as I try to go somewhere with it my subconscious is going to sabotage it". So basically it feels like I'm experience something that Sarge and Ben have noted. If i'm angry at them all of a sudden I start getting even more IOIs. If I start getting good results its like my mind says, "Oh this is headed somewhere I don't want to go" and it shuts its down which is something similar to what Ben has said before. I honestly, don't know what to do at this point about this recurring pattern that seems to happen. Not to mention can't really take this emotional roller-coaster anymore of getting IOIs, then proceeding to do something about it only to get treated like garbage when taking action.
I did notice something though today. When I was in a very bad mood because of the above mentioned things its like the aura activated for some reason. My old beliefs came back somewhat and I just had this "fuck them" attitude towards all women. Like I literally didn't give a crap about any of them that I saw then all of a sudden I start seeing IOIs again but since (1) I don't give a shit at the moment therefore i didn't pursue any of them, and (2) I didn't pursue any of them because it was like "whats the point as soon as I try to go somewhere with it my subconscious is going to sabotage it". So basically it feels like I'm experience something that Sarge and Ben have noted. If i'm angry at them all of a sudden I start getting even more IOIs. If I start getting good results its like my mind says, "Oh this is headed somewhere I don't want to go" and it shuts its down which is something similar to what Ben has said before. I honestly, don't know what to do at this point about this recurring pattern that seems to happen. Not to mention can't really take this emotional roller-coaster anymore of getting IOIs, then proceeding to do something about it only to get treated like garbage when taking action.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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