05-08-2017, 10:23 AM
Well, with great regret I'm going to have to say that I'm getting off this 3.1. train.
Not totally sure what I'm going to run next but we shall see. I do think this last post on 3.1 though will hopefully help plug in this "hole" in the program that I have mentioned before. I have become absolutely convinced the resistant part of my subconscious is able to take control of the manifestation and reality bending tech in the sub to nullify any gains made. I already had a inkling of this in 3.01 but it feels like its gone up even more during 3.1. A run down of what has happen basically is that every time it looks like things are going well with a particular girl some out of left field event happens that sabotages things from going further. For example, most of the girls that were giving me those big IOIs that I mentioned last post have either quit or gotten fired. I'm sorry but that can't be a coincidence that as soon as a girl starts getting interested that most of them get fired or quit and I never see them again.
On top of that I have noticed whenever I try to meet them "half way" by getting out of my comfort zone and actually get out there its like they either go cold or (like text, what not) they just go silent. I've seen this multiple times on tinder as well. As soon as I push for a meet up they either go really silent, make up excuses as to why they can't meet up, or start acting really bitchy all of a sudden. I've seen other things happen as well. For example, I've already had 2 incidents where the girl gets interested but then all of a sudden a event happens where they get angry at some insignificant thing which ends up making us both angry at each other and we end up never talking to each other again. Already have 2 female co-workers who I'm not on talking terms with over stupid shit that they have gotten angry about.
ugh, then the worst of them all. I don't know what my subconscious fears but its apparently so bad that it rather have PTSD again than execute the script. I had a event happen where the girl acted really, really racist towards me which actually caused me to get PTSD... again! I had to take a break for a bit to use MHS for a while to heal myself from that. I will admit I am really frustrated and angry , not at Shannon or anything obviously, but it seems like everytime I start getting good results or IOIs from women and then I get out of my comfort zone to move it along my subconscious says, "uh uh we can't have that better cause something to happen to nullify this" and then it leads to no where. I've even tried to move things along with my LDS target and she started to act cold and distant.
In a wrap up, I would say at least in my experience the main issue I'm facing with the program at the moment is that the resistant part of my subconscious seems to be able to take control of some of the manifestation techniques and reality bending in the sub then use it to nullify any gains made. Its getting really frustrating. I feel like there needs to be developed someway for the manifestation and reality bending techniques to not be used by the part of you resisting. Either way, I think I will be running something else for a while until maybe 3.2. comes out. Some will probably just say i'm running away. I kindly ask that those people not post in my journal if that is the case. I'm sorry but when your subconscious resist so badly that it would cause your mental disorder to resurface I'm out at that point until that hole gets plugged. I've lived with PTSD most of my life and I have no interest in revisiting that horrid time in my life. Hopefully this information will help with further development of the program so the subconscious doesn't have this avenue of resistance anymore.
Not totally sure what I'm going to run next but we shall see. I do think this last post on 3.1 though will hopefully help plug in this "hole" in the program that I have mentioned before. I have become absolutely convinced the resistant part of my subconscious is able to take control of the manifestation and reality bending tech in the sub to nullify any gains made. I already had a inkling of this in 3.01 but it feels like its gone up even more during 3.1. A run down of what has happen basically is that every time it looks like things are going well with a particular girl some out of left field event happens that sabotages things from going further. For example, most of the girls that were giving me those big IOIs that I mentioned last post have either quit or gotten fired. I'm sorry but that can't be a coincidence that as soon as a girl starts getting interested that most of them get fired or quit and I never see them again.
On top of that I have noticed whenever I try to meet them "half way" by getting out of my comfort zone and actually get out there its like they either go cold or (like text, what not) they just go silent. I've seen this multiple times on tinder as well. As soon as I push for a meet up they either go really silent, make up excuses as to why they can't meet up, or start acting really bitchy all of a sudden. I've seen other things happen as well. For example, I've already had 2 incidents where the girl gets interested but then all of a sudden a event happens where they get angry at some insignificant thing which ends up making us both angry at each other and we end up never talking to each other again. Already have 2 female co-workers who I'm not on talking terms with over stupid shit that they have gotten angry about.
ugh, then the worst of them all. I don't know what my subconscious fears but its apparently so bad that it rather have PTSD again than execute the script. I had a event happen where the girl acted really, really racist towards me which actually caused me to get PTSD... again! I had to take a break for a bit to use MHS for a while to heal myself from that. I will admit I am really frustrated and angry , not at Shannon or anything obviously, but it seems like everytime I start getting good results or IOIs from women and then I get out of my comfort zone to move it along my subconscious says, "uh uh we can't have that better cause something to happen to nullify this" and then it leads to no where. I've even tried to move things along with my LDS target and she started to act cold and distant.
In a wrap up, I would say at least in my experience the main issue I'm facing with the program at the moment is that the resistant part of my subconscious seems to be able to take control of some of the manifestation techniques and reality bending in the sub then use it to nullify any gains made. Its getting really frustrating. I feel like there needs to be developed someway for the manifestation and reality bending techniques to not be used by the part of you resisting. Either way, I think I will be running something else for a while until maybe 3.2. comes out. Some will probably just say i'm running away. I kindly ask that those people not post in my journal if that is the case. I'm sorry but when your subconscious resist so badly that it would cause your mental disorder to resurface I'm out at that point until that hole gets plugged. I've lived with PTSD most of my life and I have no interest in revisiting that horrid time in my life. Hopefully this information will help with further development of the program so the subconscious doesn't have this avenue of resistance anymore.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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