A Sexy Alex, stage 2: DMSI Journal (now 3.3.2!)

[apollolux]

Oh, gonna note before I forget again--I don't know if it's primarily because of the medication resulting in feeling "flat" or DMSI (or even subs in general), but I've noticed that it feels like I have a significantly reduced amount of legitimate fear. Stuff I've felt "afraid" of in the past that would give the feeling one would normally associate with fear such as fright shivers, nothing. I still have the memories that seem to be the roots of the fears (e.g. I still remember being trapped in an elevator when I was a kid), but those memories seem to no longer be attached to specific fears (e.g. I no longer feel claustrophobic in elevators or crowded subway trains).

The two big ones for me, claustrophobia and fear of heights, feel reduced, maybe even to the point of elimination. I no longer feel apprehensive getting into a crowded train, and the last time I went on a plane (June 2016) I felt...okay.