02-13-2017, 02:00 PM
I feel nothing. Cold, present, bantering, but overal its contentment I guess. Just a badass vibe. Transcending everything and simply in my own ground, almost serious. Letting autopilot doing its thing and just giving green light for everything to ooze. No overthinking, just running the sub. Aware of creating my own life, world and reality is a great thing. Strong gaze. Self supported and validated aswell as cheered on by my inner cheerleaders.
Its like something has been shutted off/released. I would say I feel almost normal. Rebellion comes out more aswell as no single fucks given about any programming from whatever source. Stage 5 seems finally to take off/hit off only to bring me above and beyond. I easily fall into powertrips and hype yet being a sexy male is what I am.
Nothing really is a point of focus. I let the sub being and guide me with a smirk on my face. Its beautiful to feel this ease and purity. If it makes me psycho so be it. IDGAF. Operating from a rather bodily point then a mental point. I do question being human. Humbling yet easy definition collection rooting in beliefs. If I transcend this I dont even have a clue what I am. It simply is over-human/something else. How crazy it may sound I might aswell forge whole new self image including something new. Aphex. Even if it doesnt seem rooted in the collective agreement/normal/reality its none of my concern. Blast of into new territory.
Also, its all on me and only me at this point. Sacrifice cross my mind to grow further and replace with more fruitfull cosmic scale changes and grandiosity hit me. To become something awholly new. Pushing this does slightly feel dangerous in the sense I can cross certain lines without remorse. I just am so elevated now I see the restrains of so many things. Keeping an eye on the rules of society or it will be disadvantage to me. I crave freedom in so many ways.
Status: feeling criminal, centred and fly. Crushing it. The power of forging a new path dawns harder then ever. Inhuman feeling and nothing. Shut off and primal drive yet very arrogant mocking cockiness like I ridicule.
Its like something has been shutted off/released. I would say I feel almost normal. Rebellion comes out more aswell as no single fucks given about any programming from whatever source. Stage 5 seems finally to take off/hit off only to bring me above and beyond. I easily fall into powertrips and hype yet being a sexy male is what I am.
Nothing really is a point of focus. I let the sub being and guide me with a smirk on my face. Its beautiful to feel this ease and purity. If it makes me psycho so be it. IDGAF. Operating from a rather bodily point then a mental point. I do question being human. Humbling yet easy definition collection rooting in beliefs. If I transcend this I dont even have a clue what I am. It simply is over-human/something else. How crazy it may sound I might aswell forge whole new self image including something new. Aphex. Even if it doesnt seem rooted in the collective agreement/normal/reality its none of my concern. Blast of into new territory.
Also, its all on me and only me at this point. Sacrifice cross my mind to grow further and replace with more fruitfull cosmic scale changes and grandiosity hit me. To become something awholly new. Pushing this does slightly feel dangerous in the sense I can cross certain lines without remorse. I just am so elevated now I see the restrains of so many things. Keeping an eye on the rules of society or it will be disadvantage to me. I crave freedom in so many ways.
Status: feeling criminal, centred and fly. Crushing it. The power of forging a new path dawns harder then ever. Inhuman feeling and nothing. Shut off and primal drive yet very arrogant mocking cockiness like I ridicule.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
