Awesome.
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I seem to be amidst big changes, confidence dip and entitlement dip yet the total disregard of the girls frame is accepted mentally. Also notice how I have high expectations towards myself. Cycling between wanting to throw my phone against the wall mixed with depression and hopelessness. I really dont give a fuck about the girls frame at all. Just surrendering her to mine. Then its a closed deal. Gravitating towards 9's and 10's as I tend to view myself so.
Its all fuckery around and tend to push own boundaries a bit by field testing and experimenting which is funny as shit.
Also the guys some girl hook up with lower their value like in my eyes like 'you really could get someone better'. Not from a jelous or needy frame, rather me being the best choice and tied in my own sense of value and status.
Edit: Opening left right centre isnt any issue for me ( if so, fine, more power to me then, gladly facing it) only the warm up is at times a wall I hit. Now, this is exactly the thing working on currently. More becomes clear as to root of it,or, atleast this helps me heal and grow. Knot in the stomach stuff.
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I seem to be amidst big changes, confidence dip and entitlement dip yet the total disregard of the girls frame is accepted mentally. Also notice how I have high expectations towards myself. Cycling between wanting to throw my phone against the wall mixed with depression and hopelessness. I really dont give a fuck about the girls frame at all. Just surrendering her to mine. Then its a closed deal. Gravitating towards 9's and 10's as I tend to view myself so.
Its all fuckery around and tend to push own boundaries a bit by field testing and experimenting which is funny as shit.
Also the guys some girl hook up with lower their value like in my eyes like 'you really could get someone better'. Not from a jelous or needy frame, rather me being the best choice and tied in my own sense of value and status.
Edit: Opening left right centre isnt any issue for me ( if so, fine, more power to me then, gladly facing it) only the warm up is at times a wall I hit. Now, this is exactly the thing working on currently. More becomes clear as to root of it,or, atleast this helps me heal and grow. Knot in the stomach stuff.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
