Day 30
The rage comes and goes. Intense depression spells, anger, hopelessness. Thoughts and mood is flippant as fuck. Bouncing from heing pretty happy and fine, only to flip on a single mental image back into 'burn all down' rage mode. Also hostility towards my father is back in a sense of feeling used in ways. Seems like old crap is weeded out and dying.
This bi-polair shit is way to ridiculous. Not letting this shit ruin my day as I am blessed in countless ways. Just a break from all like taking some women with me to some high value displaying event would be nice. Well thats new, aswell as labeling neediness for sexual stuff is a fear response in some cases.
Life as Im currently living closes off and is ended.
Off to get some food and enjoying the value of creation (supply/demand) of money around me Life aint that bad.
The rage comes and goes. Intense depression spells, anger, hopelessness. Thoughts and mood is flippant as fuck. Bouncing from heing pretty happy and fine, only to flip on a single mental image back into 'burn all down' rage mode. Also hostility towards my father is back in a sense of feeling used in ways. Seems like old crap is weeded out and dying.
This bi-polair shit is way to ridiculous. Not letting this shit ruin my day as I am blessed in countless ways. Just a break from all like taking some women with me to some high value displaying event would be nice. Well thats new, aswell as labeling neediness for sexual stuff is a fear response in some cases.
Life as Im currently living closes off and is ended.
Off to get some food and enjoying the value of creation (supply/demand) of money around me Life aint that bad.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
