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I just think that with enough willpower anything should be possible. But it seems like that isn't the case. I'm just specifically thinking of my past with girls. I was shy as kid, the hottest girls flocked to me in middle school but I didn't see it at that time and was too shy and afraid to do anything. I failed. I did what I thought was the right thing to do relating to girls in high school. And failed. I came to college and got my shit together, come to cusp of success repeatedly with hot girls. But still somehow, almost like some force was holding me back, failed. No one can tell me anything about willpower. But I see that willpower isn't the unstoppable thing I've always thought it to be. I thought willpower and correct actions always guaranteed results, but I was wrong. I don't care what others say. Being "cool" or "popular" doesn't really mean shit with regards to women.

Willpower is great, but in my experience it doesn't last. Willpower is like manual override for your behavior, but eventually it switches back. Good in a pinch, but no long term solution. But you've got determination and strength which keeps you going. If you didn't have these things you would have given up a long time ago.

As for true power, you're already on the path to that. True power is just the result of having cleared so much of your limiting beliefs that you see no limitations. When your conscious and subconscious work together to bring about something instead of the whole tug of war thing that often goes on. Have you read reality transurfing at all? The author discusses this. It's the difference between inner and outer intention. Inner intention you fight to change things, you exert tremendous willpower because you don't believe such things are possible. Outer intention is understanding that all things are possible, you just have to set the intention and allow it to unfold in your life. You don't fight to make it happen because you know it will happen. A lot of this is releasing the beliefs that paint reality as a hard, blood sweat and tears struggle and accepting that it's only one interpretation of how reality is. Something that I personally have had tremendous difficulty carrying out. We tend to see reality through the filter of all we've absorbed throughout our lives and most of us only see pain and struggle. That's the truth to us and anything else is wishful thinking or delusion. But the real delusion is not taking advantage of the fact that our own realities are highly malleable and choosing to stay in a reality that is full of pain.

Having said that, I think the fastest road to claiming that true power is to get into the habit of questioning what you hold as truth vs what is your personal belief. I'll give you a personal example to emphasize how powerful it can be. I used to struggle with depression a lot. I spent a lot of time on forums where people stated it was a disease and a defect in the brain, it couldn't be cured, you just learned to live with it, it was genetic, etc. That was my truth for years and it prevented me from moving on from it. The hard part when we do this is we aren't aware that these are merely beliefs, we think they are reality and don't question it enough. So we get stuck and can't move on, but at the same time we don't know what it is we need to change.

Sorry for the length, I get carried away sometimes because I've been on a quest for that true power for a long time now and I like to drop in my 2 cents whenever possible if I think it'll help.

You have no reason to apologize. Thanks.

I've seen "Reality Transurfing" mentioned often on the forum but haven't read the book myself. If it has really made a difference for so many people, I should at least give it a read.

I think that the only real thing I feel I've been fighting for in my life is all related to social circumstances and girls. With regards to my career, it sounds more like it's an outer intention from what you described. I definitely feel the difference between the two. But yeah, if Reality Transurfing leads to the true power, I'I'll definitely read it.

Thanks again man.

No prob, anytime. It's a bit of a hefty read but it goes very in depth, so if you're the type of person that likes knowing the finer details of stuff it's definitely the book for you.