Despite yesterday having gone downhill, I somehow quickly recovered for the most part today. That's legitimately surprising. I believe I'm making progress. I wasn't as 100% as I was at the start of the week but kinda like around 80% or so today. Minor resistance. I took action today and I'm more at peace with myself. That's nothing new though. It's new as in the first time in a while on E2 that this occurred, but not new to how I functioned pre-E2.
The only thing in the air now is how much longer will I stay on E2. I'll say this, let's just say that I have sex with an attractive girl before I reach 8 months, I'll definitely stop E2 and prepare to move to DMSI. I know E2 isn't designed for that, but if that blockage is removed, then I should be totally ready for DMSI.
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I totally misread CatMan's Brother's post. I thought CatMan's brother had made CatMan change subs or something. I just re-read it and I'm glad that I'm wrong lol.
I'm glad Shannon is adding in something referencing friends w/ benefits specifically to DMSI v3. At this point, that's pretty much exactly what I think I want. Real friends who I enjoy talking to and being around with real benefits of going wild in the bedroom. That's exactly it.
Also something to note: I noticed earlier this week when I did masked track for 3 hours and ended with 3 hours of ultra right before bed, I had serious issues getting to sleep and staying asleep. Last night I did 1 hr of masked, about 3 hours of ultra, then finished with the masked hours and I didn't have nearly as much trouble going to sleep. So from now on I'll end with masked.
P.S. I think that my social anxiety is slowly but surely going away. The general things are being handled, but the specific things like being nervous about talking to certain people or talking to people in certain situations need to be handled. For example, right now I feel more comfortable cold approaching a girl and doing it seriously not some half ass shit than just saying "Hey" to someone in a couple of classes. I don't feel like 50% comfortable in 2 of my classes and like 80%-100% comfortable in the rest depending on the day. However, if someone starts a convo with me in any context, I feel much more comfortable.
The only thing in the air now is how much longer will I stay on E2. I'll say this, let's just say that I have sex with an attractive girl before I reach 8 months, I'll definitely stop E2 and prepare to move to DMSI. I know E2 isn't designed for that, but if that blockage is removed, then I should be totally ready for DMSI.
Unrelated
I totally misread CatMan's Brother's post. I thought CatMan's brother had made CatMan change subs or something. I just re-read it and I'm glad that I'm wrong lol.
I'm glad Shannon is adding in something referencing friends w/ benefits specifically to DMSI v3. At this point, that's pretty much exactly what I think I want. Real friends who I enjoy talking to and being around with real benefits of going wild in the bedroom. That's exactly it.
Also something to note: I noticed earlier this week when I did masked track for 3 hours and ended with 3 hours of ultra right before bed, I had serious issues getting to sleep and staying asleep. Last night I did 1 hr of masked, about 3 hours of ultra, then finished with the masked hours and I didn't have nearly as much trouble going to sleep. So from now on I'll end with masked.
P.S. I think that my social anxiety is slowly but surely going away. The general things are being handled, but the specific things like being nervous about talking to certain people or talking to people in certain situations need to be handled. For example, right now I feel more comfortable cold approaching a girl and doing it seriously not some half ass shit than just saying "Hey" to someone in a couple of classes. I don't feel like 50% comfortable in 2 of my classes and like 80%-100% comfortable in the rest depending on the day. However, if someone starts a convo with me in any context, I feel much more comfortable.
