The overall better mood is still present, however I'm going through some resistance.
My heart feels like it's about to jump out of my chest at random times. But I don't necessarily feel nervous or that anxious.
I have been getting random semi-hard ons frequently. Like even the thought of having a hot friend w/ benefits gives me a semi. I feel like I can't hold it in much longer, probably gonna fap to porn since I don't have an attractive girl to fuck yet. But the time is approaching. I feel like part of my subconscious knows this now.
So when I got back to my place, one of my suitemates female friends starts a convo with me while I'm setting something up in the kitchen. I smelled weed and knew my suitemate had been smoking and assumed she probably had been too. She asked about my major, what I'm planning on doing, shows I've seen and told me similar things about herself. I was having trouble getting the extension cord of my new cooker out. That thing was stuck for me! And I didn't wanna rip it. She offered to help and then just walked on over and got it out. She casually touched me a few times. A light tap on my upper thigh with the back of her hand (she's a little taller than me), and hi 5s. She even took a picture of my cooker (it's an air fryer) since she liked it. Whenever drugs or alcohol are involved, I kinda "don't count" the interaction. I just mentioned this because it stuck out to me and it just happened. If I had found her attractive, I would have lead things forward regardless.
Unrelated Story- "iPhone Wake Up Call"
I woke up in the early ass morning to get the iPhone 7. I really wanted a Jet Black. I went to an ATT store, but I got a bit lost on the way, had to wait to defrost my windows, and by the time I got there, I arrived 15 minutes after the store opened instead of arriving right as the store opened or a bit earlier. The line was maybe like 20 people, not bad honestly. A rep came out to ask which one I wanted. I told her the Jet Black. And she was like "Well we have Matte Black available. We only had 1 Jet Black earlier". I stood there a moment, dumbfounded, and a bit upset that I got there later than planned, thanked her, and left.
I head to Best Buy, they're not open yet. I planned on waiting outside a couple hours for them to open and hopefully get a jet black. A rep actually comes out and asks if I'm there for an iPhone 7. He told me they only had Matte Black and Rose Gold in the storage size I wanted. I came in to take an in person look at black. It looks good, so I ended up getting that one.
I later see a CNET review online comparing Jet Black to Matte Black. With 1 week of careful use, Jet Black had scratches and scuffs already, not the matte black.
I'm seriously thinking E2's OE led me to getting the Matte Black. Up until today, I was 100% set on Jet Black, even if I had to wait a month for it lol. But then I remembered what happened last time I did what I wanted 100% even though it was like everything was trying to stop me. And I'm kinda living with the consequences now (my suitemates aren't the best, but I wanted to live in this complex SO bad).
Sidenote
If DMSI is still in testing at the start of 2017, that'll be interesting for me. I know by then it'd be even way more effective than it is now. And I'd like to be a part of testing. I'm in a perfect environment to do so and see a decent amount of attractive girls on pretty much a daily basis.
My heart feels like it's about to jump out of my chest at random times. But I don't necessarily feel nervous or that anxious.
I have been getting random semi-hard ons frequently. Like even the thought of having a hot friend w/ benefits gives me a semi. I feel like I can't hold it in much longer, probably gonna fap to porn since I don't have an attractive girl to fuck yet. But the time is approaching. I feel like part of my subconscious knows this now.
So when I got back to my place, one of my suitemates female friends starts a convo with me while I'm setting something up in the kitchen. I smelled weed and knew my suitemate had been smoking and assumed she probably had been too. She asked about my major, what I'm planning on doing, shows I've seen and told me similar things about herself. I was having trouble getting the extension cord of my new cooker out. That thing was stuck for me! And I didn't wanna rip it. She offered to help and then just walked on over and got it out. She casually touched me a few times. A light tap on my upper thigh with the back of her hand (she's a little taller than me), and hi 5s. She even took a picture of my cooker (it's an air fryer) since she liked it. Whenever drugs or alcohol are involved, I kinda "don't count" the interaction. I just mentioned this because it stuck out to me and it just happened. If I had found her attractive, I would have lead things forward regardless.
Unrelated Story- "iPhone Wake Up Call"
I woke up in the early ass morning to get the iPhone 7. I really wanted a Jet Black. I went to an ATT store, but I got a bit lost on the way, had to wait to defrost my windows, and by the time I got there, I arrived 15 minutes after the store opened instead of arriving right as the store opened or a bit earlier. The line was maybe like 20 people, not bad honestly. A rep came out to ask which one I wanted. I told her the Jet Black. And she was like "Well we have Matte Black available. We only had 1 Jet Black earlier". I stood there a moment, dumbfounded, and a bit upset that I got there later than planned, thanked her, and left.
I head to Best Buy, they're not open yet. I planned on waiting outside a couple hours for them to open and hopefully get a jet black. A rep actually comes out and asks if I'm there for an iPhone 7. He told me they only had Matte Black and Rose Gold in the storage size I wanted. I came in to take an in person look at black. It looks good, so I ended up getting that one.
I later see a CNET review online comparing Jet Black to Matte Black. With 1 week of careful use, Jet Black had scratches and scuffs already, not the matte black.
I'm seriously thinking E2's OE led me to getting the Matte Black. Up until today, I was 100% set on Jet Black, even if I had to wait a month for it lol. But then I remembered what happened last time I did what I wanted 100% even though it was like everything was trying to stop me. And I'm kinda living with the consequences now (my suitemates aren't the best, but I wanted to live in this complex SO bad).
Sidenote
If DMSI is still in testing at the start of 2017, that'll be interesting for me. I know by then it'd be even way more effective than it is now. And I'd like to be a part of testing. I'm in a perfect environment to do so and see a decent amount of attractive girls on pretty much a daily basis.
