Since I've turned off the EQ and and have had a chance to run E2 for a little while, I definitely feel different. This is almost like when I felt emotionally numb, however it's not necessarily numbness. It's like all emotions towards BS in my life have shut off. No, I don't feel happy or good, but I don't feel bad, stressed out, or anything like that either. I kind of feel neutral right now. I feel like an emotionally neutral version of myself. This is new.
If I felt like this the whole time E2 fixed traumas etc. in the background, I'd be much better off than I have been recently.
One thing that bothered me earlier is this: Since returning to campus, I felt like whatever skills I do have with girls have been turned off or at least severely stunted. It's like in my classes for example, I see attractive girls, we interact sometimes, but I don't know how to get 1 on 1. This was nothing in the past. Now, it's like I mentally know what I intend, but just don't know how to make it happen. I thought for a while that maybe I'll just chill in Yin energy and the girls will just come to me. That didn't work. The attractive girls aren't just waiting outside of class for me or trying to come to me (however, a less attractive one does). So since I know I have to do something, it's frustrating not being able to just do it at will after so many times. Maybe this newfound state will correct that.
It's such a stretch to make it to December...but I'll see. Ultimately, if I run DMSI after and get the results I expect, I'll say that my E2 run was a success as I originally intended to clear away whatever prevented me from having sex with hot girls regardless how close I got.
P.S. Also, I've been getting little "mini headaches" the past few days. Like I'll feel the sensation like my head will start hurting but it only lasts a couple seconds, maybe 2-3 times max a day.
Edit: So far yeah, it seems like I'm a slightly modified version of myself, but I'm now actually starting to feel like myself again. If this state stays the same or improves over the next, that'd be AWESOME!
If I felt like this the whole time E2 fixed traumas etc. in the background, I'd be much better off than I have been recently.
One thing that bothered me earlier is this: Since returning to campus, I felt like whatever skills I do have with girls have been turned off or at least severely stunted. It's like in my classes for example, I see attractive girls, we interact sometimes, but I don't know how to get 1 on 1. This was nothing in the past. Now, it's like I mentally know what I intend, but just don't know how to make it happen. I thought for a while that maybe I'll just chill in Yin energy and the girls will just come to me. That didn't work. The attractive girls aren't just waiting outside of class for me or trying to come to me (however, a less attractive one does). So since I know I have to do something, it's frustrating not being able to just do it at will after so many times. Maybe this newfound state will correct that.
It's such a stretch to make it to December...but I'll see. Ultimately, if I run DMSI after and get the results I expect, I'll say that my E2 run was a success as I originally intended to clear away whatever prevented me from having sex with hot girls regardless how close I got.
P.S. Also, I've been getting little "mini headaches" the past few days. Like I'll feel the sensation like my head will start hurting but it only lasts a couple seconds, maybe 2-3 times max a day.
Edit: So far yeah, it seems like I'm a slightly modified version of myself, but I'm now actually starting to feel like myself again. If this state stays the same or improves over the next, that'd be AWESOME!
