09-13-2016, 06:56 AM
Same with creativity here. At first I felt more able to express myself, but lately it's been tough. My latest project I worked on I went through about 4 or 5 different revisions, each one the ideas vastly different than others. And the whole time the ideas just felt like they weren't right and they didn't accurately express me. I don't know if maybe it relates to you but I have certain artists I admire and look up to as inspiration and subconsciously I had a habit of making music like them. I'm starting to think maybe the reason creativity isn't being expressed as easily is because I'm pulling from my own ideas now and I'm working through some insecurity based around that. I guess when I hear what I made and how different it is from the artists I like I tend to see it as wrong. A lot of doubt, a lot of second guessing, pretty much kills my creative flow. I've probably scrapped perfectly good ideas that should have been built into full songs, but my obsession with getting it perfect screwed me over.
And typing out forum post replies, holy crap it takes me forever. I'll write down all these thoughts then delete it, then rewrite something, delete that, read it over and over, it's madness. My only guess is when you hit a raw nerve with E2 the worst in you comes out and damn am I mess these past few weeks.
And typing out forum post replies, holy crap it takes me forever. I'll write down all these thoughts then delete it, then rewrite something, delete that, read it over and over, it's madness. My only guess is when you hit a raw nerve with E2 the worst in you comes out and damn am I mess these past few weeks.
