Just a theory
It seems like the best thing for me may be to do as many hours as possible on the weekend and just 6 hours during the week. I say that because today I didn't feel "oversensitive" like this program has led to me feel during most of my use. I'll test my theory for the next week or two and see.
Today, after my dance class, I kinda just felt stuck. I'm not good at ballet right now (honestly I suck). It's my first time ever doing any kind of ballet and even after a few weeks I'm not good at all. I feel like I suck when I'm in the class. Most of the others get it pretty quick, some I know have had previous experience though. The main issue is that I don't even have time when I get back to my room to practice any of it. I have way too much work in other classes. So it's like a cycle of go to class, suck, go home, don't practice, go back to class, suck some more, etc. If I actually had time to practice it, it wouldn't worry me at all. I'd make sure I know what I'm doing.
Unrelated
I really don't know how the guys who are claiming to have gone crazy and indulged in their own emotional abuse could have success with women. I know I went after girls while I was in my own emotional turmoil. Never actually resulted in sex except once, so that perplexes me
It seems now that I'm getting past hating women as a whole, which is awesome. But I still hate the individuals that have messed with me. I saw one today and thought "get the hell out my sight. begone". It's really small things like a random girl simply smiling at me or a random girl saying hey to me that lead me to believe that most of my girl trauma has been healed.
If E2 totally instills self-validation within me and removes the feelings of loneliness, I should be solid to handle myself in MLTRs. From that point, it'll definitely be time to run DMSI since it can heal anything else related to sex.
Edit:
In general, my thought process, learning speed and creativity is slowed (especially my creativity atm) just from using E2. When hours go insanely high, my thought process speed is DRAMATICALLY slower. Do not drive within 12 hours of high hours of exposure.
It seems like the best thing for me may be to do as many hours as possible on the weekend and just 6 hours during the week. I say that because today I didn't feel "oversensitive" like this program has led to me feel during most of my use. I'll test my theory for the next week or two and see.
Today, after my dance class, I kinda just felt stuck. I'm not good at ballet right now (honestly I suck). It's my first time ever doing any kind of ballet and even after a few weeks I'm not good at all. I feel like I suck when I'm in the class. Most of the others get it pretty quick, some I know have had previous experience though. The main issue is that I don't even have time when I get back to my room to practice any of it. I have way too much work in other classes. So it's like a cycle of go to class, suck, go home, don't practice, go back to class, suck some more, etc. If I actually had time to practice it, it wouldn't worry me at all. I'd make sure I know what I'm doing.
Unrelated
I really don't know how the guys who are claiming to have gone crazy and indulged in their own emotional abuse could have success with women. I know I went after girls while I was in my own emotional turmoil. Never actually resulted in sex except once, so that perplexes me
It seems now that I'm getting past hating women as a whole, which is awesome. But I still hate the individuals that have messed with me. I saw one today and thought "get the hell out my sight. begone". It's really small things like a random girl simply smiling at me or a random girl saying hey to me that lead me to believe that most of my girl trauma has been healed.
If E2 totally instills self-validation within me and removes the feelings of loneliness, I should be solid to handle myself in MLTRs. From that point, it'll definitely be time to run DMSI since it can heal anything else related to sex.
Edit:
In general, my thought process, learning speed and creativity is slowed (especially my creativity atm) just from using E2. When hours go insanely high, my thought process speed is DRAMATICALLY slower. Do not drive within 12 hours of high hours of exposure.
