09-06-2016, 05:12 PM
(09-06-2016, 05:05 PM)DisneylandUSA Wrote:(09-06-2016, 04:55 PM)maxx55 Wrote: Head is hurting pretty fierce. Did some research today to see what I'm feeling. Seems like I have symptoms of depression at the moment. I want to sleep and it's ridiculously difficult to focus and do homework.
I thought about stopping E2 for this reason, but yeah I know, it's "resistance". I'm definitely reducing my hours, maybe just 6 a day, no more than 8. I can't get anything done feeling like this. I really wonder if it's even worth it. I feel like I should be doing something exciting on a daily basis, but I don't have the time to right now.
Also, I found out that neurogenesis fights depression. And that things like stress can slow down or stop neurogensis, which would lead to symptoms of depression. I've definitely been stressed recently. But it's things I can't avoid. So I'm going to back to exercising and start learning something new, both of which should encourage neurogenesis.
I know a while back I said I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. Right now, I don't see it. I just want to feel better, have more time to have fun, and really know that E2 is a turning point in my life.
Here's a list of the benefits I have from E2 so far:
-Guilt, shame, and fear responses have weakened a bit
-I'm visible to people more often
-Guys start convos with me every so often (randoms)
-Guys hold doors open occasionally (randoms)
-I'm landing more roles for my career
-Occasionally, I get free food or food discounts (sometimes my first time I get something there)
-Money seems to come to me a bit more often in various forms
Interesting about, 'Neurogenesis.' Sounds fascinating about the 'birth of Neurons.' Sounds like you are growing with E2
I'd like to think so man, but I'm just trying to find ways to feel better
I checked some older threads. It seems like headaches can be a specific kind of resistance to subs. I'm pretty sure that's what this one is. It's been going on the past few hours. I only listened for 1 hour today and like 10 hours yesterday. Shannon said that the headache means the sub is working though, the subconscious is just trying to resist.
