Thanks, I'll keep that in mind. Shannon was the one that suggested I run E2 back when I gave him a detailed explanation of my situation so that's why I'm on it.
It's not that I don't have days where I think "oh yeah, I'm really improving", it's just that sometimes like today I'm triggered and EVERYTHING goes off the rails. I was just hoping that after 6 months, it wouldn't be possible for me to off the rails anymore. That's not the case yet.
And then I wonder to myself if it's REALLY possible to get rid of ALL the emotional traumas? And on top of that it's not like I'm sitting at home just listening to the sub, keeping myself stress-free. I have a life and I have to go to classes and I can't make the girls disappear, I still see them. I can't set my teacher on fire, I'll get in trouble. And I can't kill the people that piss me off or else I'm a criminal. The only actual thing I can do without any trouble is change who I'm being, that's it. It's that or start acting on my extreme impulses. I just wonder if E2 takes all of this into consideration.
It's not that I don't have days where I think "oh yeah, I'm really improving", it's just that sometimes like today I'm triggered and EVERYTHING goes off the rails. I was just hoping that after 6 months, it wouldn't be possible for me to off the rails anymore. That's not the case yet.
And then I wonder to myself if it's REALLY possible to get rid of ALL the emotional traumas? And on top of that it's not like I'm sitting at home just listening to the sub, keeping myself stress-free. I have a life and I have to go to classes and I can't make the girls disappear, I still see them. I can't set my teacher on fire, I'll get in trouble. And I can't kill the people that piss me off or else I'm a criminal. The only actual thing I can do without any trouble is change who I'm being, that's it. It's that or start acting on my extreme impulses. I just wonder if E2 takes all of this into consideration.
