08-27-2016, 07:40 AM
(08-27-2016, 05:53 AM)chaosvrgn Wrote: Day 7:
Four loops last night. Maybe.
I was sleeping so hard that I'm not sure if the headphones fell out of one of my ears. I remember dreaming, just don't remember what. Like, at all. Just imprints of dreams and waking up, pulling the headphones from my ears and falling back asleep.
Terrible, terrible anger based resistance today. Suddenly experiencing body image issues -- really self-aware of a number of stubborn fat pockets that just won't melt away. Intense anger toward women, particularly women in the past I allowed to treat me like a beta. Anger toward society for enabling this sh*t. Also woke up in a lot of pain. Boxing related. Glad I skipped yesterday.
Read a story about a woman who was targeting wealthy, lonely businessmen on online dating sites. When she got to their house, she'd call the police and claim she was the man's fiancee, that she lived there for four months and that he was abusing her. The police would always side with her, arrest him and slap him with a temporary injunction banning him from his own home. In this case, even the neighbors corraborated the man's story, said the woman didn't live there. The policeman refused to verify her ID. While incarcerated, the woman robbed him silly -- as she to many others before. Apparently, she did this like 10 times before being caught. The last victim sued the city for $150,000 and the police department won't even issue a basic apology. In fact, they said he was responsible for the events that led to his arrest. Even more enraging, both men and women supported the policeman's decision in the comments.
Men are so damn thirsty that they'll destroy their own masculinity and the lives of others for a chance at p*ssy.
I'm so close to canceling my date with "A" tonight and working on my business. Stayed up late last night developing a sales page for my eCommerce training course (FINALLY FINISHED IT!) and I'm eager to move on to the next product. I want to make $10k in September.
F*ck b*tches.
Your post reminded me of something that happened to me once a long time ago. I was about 20 at the time and walking with a friend of mine, who I considered an older brother to me.
As we were walking, this gorgeous girl walked right by us - she was walking her dog. I turned to him and said something like "Wow, she's gorgeous, I wish I could get a girl like that."
I'll never forget his response. "No, you don't. That's a girl that knows she's hot."
That one event changed the way I viewed women and I realized over the years that basically, when it comes to women, especially attractive ones, that, and this may be a very controversial statement I'm making, but, at least from the women I have known and befriended in my time, that women look at dates as an exchange of their time for being taken out somewhere. It's why women expect the men to pay. It's what I like to call the pretty woman syndrome - pre meeting Richard Gere. In trying to keep my content as clean as possible, being a new poster, I ask that you read between the lines on that last point.
I've seen that happen over and over again - there are absolutely exceptions to the rule. Those exceptions tend to be the men that have no interest in the woman, which suddenly changes the woman's perspective and then it becomes an identity crisis for them. Hence, women go for the abusive guy - the one that doesn't care about them. Because she needs validation from him specifically. Not from the nice guy that will do anything for her. That guy has already validated her, and in my opinion, that is the reason why a woman won't sleep with him. Unless it is a pity screw.
My heads a little all over the place with this post - the basic gist of what I wanted to say is really that I think the sub is working its best parts on you. The goal of the sub is to make you the absolute highest value man. The one that is high value is the one that does not validate a woman, but rather uses a woman as a distraction when they are not focused on what is a priority in their life.
Over the past three days (I just started day four today), I myself have noticed that my focus for work has been incredible.
I think these anger emotions you are feeling is your brain resetting and it is going against past programming that has been ingrained into you.
I've found that once I stated what makes me angry - it usually dissipates.
All the same, It is very exciting to read your progress.
