(08-26-2016, 04:43 AM)Dilettante Wrote: Hey chaos, has the anger subsided during your run?
I'm asking because I stopped using it about day 3 when my anger was getting the best of me (it was very much like rage) and normally i dont express my anger.
Thanks
It comes and goes -- I'm swinging from one mood to another within minutes. Earlier, I was completely calm and collected, especially while at the courthouse (damn State Trooper didn't show up, so they reassigned my court date). On the way home, I began thinking of some random things that happened in my past (most likely from DMSI processing) and I was suddenly full of rage.
In my sub experience, rage is generally caused by two things:
1. I'm playing the ultrasonic too loud, and as a naturally resistant, rebellious person (can you tell, lol), I get EXTREMELY angry because my subconscious is perceiving the subliminal programming as being told what to do. In this case, I switch to masked and the rage subsides.
2. The programming is bringing up memories and I get enraged at the person for mistreating me, and at myself for letting that person mistreat me.
I do a lot of mental alchemy exercises during the day -- my favorite one allows me to monitor the flow of my thoughts, which I write down and try to find patterns in the thought flow. Since starting DMSI, one of the prevailing patterns is a strong disdain for the fact that women seem to apply value based upon their sexual attraction. If they find you sexually attractive, it's like you have more value to the world -- intelligence, honor, life works be damned. Lot of anger coming from that, and when women get obnoxious on my Tinder or OkCupid, in the past, I would just block 'em. Now, I've really been slamming the proverbial "ice pick up their nose and into their brains" as a result.
For example (paraphrasing a real convo I had few days ago):
Me: [Nice message]
Her: [Rude, obnoxious rejection]
Me: lol. You should've been aborted.
Her: Is that a threat?
Me: ... Clearly, it's not -- unless I can go back in time and force your mother to abort you. Wait! It is a threat! I'm gonna make inventing time travel my life's mission, so I can go back in time and force your mother to abort you!
Her: blah blah blah, who cares
I blocked her after that. Funny thing is, it seemed like she was trying to apologize for her comment. But any woman that would be turned on after I said some shit like that is not someone I want to be with.
[Second example EDITED so I wouldn't break Rule #4. Just know, it was f*cked up and I got her ass good.
]Am I being mature with these? Probably not. Does it feel good? Yea, it does. Arguably, women do this shit because there's no repercussions. Start verbally smacking back and maybe things will change. One thing I never do: Approach a woman, get rejected and then go: "OMG YOU WERE UGLY ANYWAY." Yeah... that one won't work. But I won't be afraid to call someone out on being rude.
Got a little sidetracked there, but the TL;DR version is: Yes, the rage passes. It comes and goes like [insert profound quip here.]
