Rage ahead
I really felt like I just HAD to get this out!
All this time here I am feeling like I'm making decent progress over the last 5 months and then I get back to campus to move in. And in 3 days, I'm having major anger towards girls and guys who have girls that I see just from going to the local places I had to go to to pick up some things.
I was really looking forward to starting off the first day of classes on the right foot, I REALLY believed that this semester would be different. Until all the FUCKIN ANGER CAME BACK! I saw this really hot girl in the grocery store but I didn't go talk to her, I had a list of things to get and I didn't feel like wasting time, effort, and energy for fuckin nothing. Then when me, my mother, and her were passing each other on the same aisle, I intentionally just looked straight ahead because I could already feel the anger welling up. Looking at her hot face would've made me ANGRIER. But then my mom tells me after we pass that I should have said hi because she looked at me. For whatever reason, this REALLY PISSED ME OFF! I really hate when girls do bullshit like this and you end up having a long interaction, make plans, and then the plans never happens. I'm so SICK of this fucking BS.
On top OF ALL THIS SHIT, it's my b-day (22nd) and I wanted it to at least not suck. Honestly, I wanted it to be FUCKIN EPIC, but at the very least not SUCK! And I already feel like it's gonna suck! Seeing hot girls, guys with girls, being pissed off, not having accomplished what I wanted to over the summer, and having to start class all really just made me pissed off.
I know where I need to be, but it just seems like it's nearly impossible or not as attainable as it should be. It makes no sense. And it needs to change. It NEEDS TO CHANGE RIGHT FUCKING NOW!
I feel like it'll be INSANE when I finally can run DMSI and put all these fucking girls in their place with their bs. The tables will finally be turned!!
I really felt like I just HAD to get this out!
All this time here I am feeling like I'm making decent progress over the last 5 months and then I get back to campus to move in. And in 3 days, I'm having major anger towards girls and guys who have girls that I see just from going to the local places I had to go to to pick up some things.
I was really looking forward to starting off the first day of classes on the right foot, I REALLY believed that this semester would be different. Until all the FUCKIN ANGER CAME BACK! I saw this really hot girl in the grocery store but I didn't go talk to her, I had a list of things to get and I didn't feel like wasting time, effort, and energy for fuckin nothing. Then when me, my mother, and her were passing each other on the same aisle, I intentionally just looked straight ahead because I could already feel the anger welling up. Looking at her hot face would've made me ANGRIER. But then my mom tells me after we pass that I should have said hi because she looked at me. For whatever reason, this REALLY PISSED ME OFF! I really hate when girls do bullshit like this and you end up having a long interaction, make plans, and then the plans never happens. I'm so SICK of this fucking BS.
On top OF ALL THIS SHIT, it's my b-day (22nd) and I wanted it to at least not suck. Honestly, I wanted it to be FUCKIN EPIC, but at the very least not SUCK! And I already feel like it's gonna suck! Seeing hot girls, guys with girls, being pissed off, not having accomplished what I wanted to over the summer, and having to start class all really just made me pissed off.
I know where I need to be, but it just seems like it's nearly impossible or not as attainable as it should be. It makes no sense. And it needs to change. It NEEDS TO CHANGE RIGHT FUCKING NOW!
I feel like it'll be INSANE when I finally can run DMSI and put all these fucking girls in their place with their bs. The tables will finally be turned!!
