07-27-2016, 09:56 AM
Short update.
I no longer doubt that I won't heal fully in a year. That's amazing in itself.
I'm finally understanding things about myself more. I now know that I don't just want to fuck hot girls. I want to experience everything there is to experience with a wide variety of girls. Some of them I'd like to be in a romantic sexual relationship with, some I'd like to be just a sexual relationship with, but I no longer just think about brutally bending all of them over and fucking the shit out of them.
Anger when seeing a girl is subsiding. This is major.
Some manifestation of people from my past. Interesting, really. They're very happy to see me.
Some things relating to my career are moving quicker than I planned which is fantastic!
And last but not least I'm going to be doing Carb Nite, which is a Cyclical Ketogenic Diet to finish my cut. I may not be single digit by the end of the summer, but I'll be close and definitely there in 3 more months or less since I'll be back in class and have less time.
Sleep hasn't been the best. It's near impossible for me to stay asleep for more than a few hours with the sleepphones on. I wake up a bit tired. If I wake up in the middle of the night, I can listen to a loop of E2, stop listening, and then I'll be knocked out until 11 am or noon. It seems like more hours are kind of taking a toll on me now, whereas before I could go 16-20+ hours no problem. I'm now mainly listening to trickling stream to make sure it hits my deep subconscious. And I now get in 8.5-14 hours a day.
Things are looking up. I totally plan on doing DMSI v3 after E2. And I'll probably do v3 until AM7 and SM4 come out in 6G!
I no longer doubt that I won't heal fully in a year. That's amazing in itself.
I'm finally understanding things about myself more. I now know that I don't just want to fuck hot girls. I want to experience everything there is to experience with a wide variety of girls. Some of them I'd like to be in a romantic sexual relationship with, some I'd like to be just a sexual relationship with, but I no longer just think about brutally bending all of them over and fucking the shit out of them.
Anger when seeing a girl is subsiding. This is major.
Some manifestation of people from my past. Interesting, really. They're very happy to see me.
Some things relating to my career are moving quicker than I planned which is fantastic!
And last but not least I'm going to be doing Carb Nite, which is a Cyclical Ketogenic Diet to finish my cut. I may not be single digit by the end of the summer, but I'll be close and definitely there in 3 more months or less since I'll be back in class and have less time.
Sleep hasn't been the best. It's near impossible for me to stay asleep for more than a few hours with the sleepphones on. I wake up a bit tired. If I wake up in the middle of the night, I can listen to a loop of E2, stop listening, and then I'll be knocked out until 11 am or noon. It seems like more hours are kind of taking a toll on me now, whereas before I could go 16-20+ hours no problem. I'm now mainly listening to trickling stream to make sure it hits my deep subconscious. And I now get in 8.5-14 hours a day.
Things are looking up. I totally plan on doing DMSI v3 after E2. And I'll probably do v3 until AM7 and SM4 come out in 6G!
