E 2.0 Day 53
I got one of the clearest signs today that I need to stick with E2 at least until the end of this month.
One of the most emotionally taxing and exhausting days came from helping my father move. It wasn't just moving him that put me out, but the fact that so little on his end was planned and arranged.
I can use all the tense words here: frustration, bewilderment, disappointment, irritation, exasperation, annoyance etc etc etc. I feel all that at once right now and it doesn't feel good.
His new place isn't available when he thought it might be (today as i moved him) and he cut ties with the old place so that is no longer an option. That's not a very good combination for a move. All i can say is thank God he's close to his church so they can help him out. He'll also be crashing at my place as need be, but I am quit upset with him that he told me everything was sorted when clearly almost nothing was.
Now i also see new long term vision and goals for my business. I will likely be the only one in my family going in to the next few decades who will have the financial power to do anything. Making sure my parents, and to a lesser degree my siblings, are alright will be a top priority. It has to be because they're not making it on their own and that scares me a bit.
Obviously this adds pressure to my situation to do well, but really, there's no other option. No one else can or is willing to do it.
That in itself was a relatively harsh realization as i lugged around boxes of my dads stuff. I will be pressured and pushed to my limits as i live along side my parents, and saddened beyond reason when they pass. This is a very curious world we live in. So emotionally taxing at times.
**Trying to figure out when I should switch over to BASE from E2 was one of my manifestation experiments, by the way. The universe responded with the answer as a bold Las Vegas style neon sign.
I got one of the clearest signs today that I need to stick with E2 at least until the end of this month.
One of the most emotionally taxing and exhausting days came from helping my father move. It wasn't just moving him that put me out, but the fact that so little on his end was planned and arranged.
I can use all the tense words here: frustration, bewilderment, disappointment, irritation, exasperation, annoyance etc etc etc. I feel all that at once right now and it doesn't feel good.
His new place isn't available when he thought it might be (today as i moved him) and he cut ties with the old place so that is no longer an option. That's not a very good combination for a move. All i can say is thank God he's close to his church so they can help him out. He'll also be crashing at my place as need be, but I am quit upset with him that he told me everything was sorted when clearly almost nothing was.
Now i also see new long term vision and goals for my business. I will likely be the only one in my family going in to the next few decades who will have the financial power to do anything. Making sure my parents, and to a lesser degree my siblings, are alright will be a top priority. It has to be because they're not making it on their own and that scares me a bit.
Obviously this adds pressure to my situation to do well, but really, there's no other option. No one else can or is willing to do it.
That in itself was a relatively harsh realization as i lugged around boxes of my dads stuff. I will be pressured and pushed to my limits as i live along side my parents, and saddened beyond reason when they pass. This is a very curious world we live in. So emotionally taxing at times.
**Trying to figure out when I should switch over to BASE from E2 was one of my manifestation experiments, by the way. The universe responded with the answer as a bold Las Vegas style neon sign.
