Transcendent Sith Lord's DMSI 3.3 D Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Let see, I ran E2 for about I would say a combination of 2 or 2 and a half months. I had to take breaks some times (days or sometimes 2 weeks in between) because my PTSD was literally causing some fierce resistance to the program. As for how long its now been since the "M" enchanced EPRHA 2.0 session, its been a week exactly. Part of me wants to move on to AM6 refresher, since i'm "cleared" out now, so I can master that but I'm pretty determined to at least keep this for another 30 days or so to cement this new change. I'm not exactly sure how poweful that "M" enhanced E2 session was but I can probably venture a guess. If I remember correctly "generally" users aren't to expect the Auto-state shifting until about long term usage (the 3 month or 6 month mark) I would say its around there in power maybe. Thats just my speculation though.

All I know is that the auto state shifting for fear was no where insight the day before and then the day after it was just there. To give you a idea of how it feels like right now its like the state shifting is causing some type of "fear amnesia" around "certain" memories. Imagine you trying to stick your finger through a orange but every time you do it your finger doesn't piece the orange but just slides along the surface. Thats how it feels like when I try to remember a "certain" memories where I felt fear. Its like I can't consciously access them that well. Like they are slipping out of my conscious mental grasp every time I reach for them (Not that I care that much).

Also the ones that I can remember are very, very fuzzy. Its like a painting where someone dumped a bucket of water on it and the various paints are starting to drip towards the bottom.