05-27-2016, 03:00 AM
EPRHA 2.0 (changing course a bit - 1 – 3 month cycle)
When the universe gives me a sign I just have to listen. This time it was nearly four months of emotional tension that came out of nowhere right after the first cycle of BASE ended.
I thought surely running BASE for another cycle would have been the solution, but 4 months in (stage 7 for two months then stage 1 and 2 after) and the emotional tension was still hanging around.
Initially I thought it was that I wasn’t pushing past 5 figures fast enough in my traffic business. My original aim was to scale this biz into beast mode and do like my business peers who crank out $20 – 50k per month profit. I just wasn’t profiting as strongly as I had hope to by this stage of my biz, and that’s why I felt so frustrated. Or so that’s what I thought was the reason.
As stated in earlier posts though I am good at delivering traffic for my clients and I’ve made a name for myself in the industry, that’s not actually something I’m passionate about pursuing long term. In a way though I’ve profited nicely in the past 6 months, I’m slightly off course. Pursuing the copywriting biz as the next business model will help quite a bit, but there’s something deeper I need to discover, and it was that emotional tension that really helped me see this.
It’s no good to work knowing that I’m probably not in the right business for me, to feel there’s something far more fitting for my talents. That’s what was messing with my head sort of in the background for the last few months. I didn’t like thinking about it, but it was there.
There were also some feelings of questionable worthiness of some of the income I’d been accruing (which is sort of nonsense because I worked hard to get where I am), and a general lack of purpose behind work each day.
So on the 26th I switched to E 2 and the Alice in Wonderland adventure down the rabbit hole has begun.
I felt a growing sense of calmness within the first hour of listening, and within three hours it was like I should celebrate great news of achievement or something. Same day after about six hours and I feel my mouth smiling more with a serendipitous warmth all over my body, which is not how I’ve been these past 4 months. I remember a lot of moments in the past couple months, headphones on, leaning back in my office chair staring at the ceiling trying to find inspiration – trying to figure out which path or move to pursue next.
Now it just feels alright. There’s deep peace on only the second day, and that’s insane.
I know it’s not happening soon, but if BASE ever gets a facelift into 5.5/6G, holy bananas.
During a nap I had a flash back of a bunch of moments from my childhood and elementary days where I had been bullied, made fun of, or just generally embarrassed. It would take a pretty serious act of memory recall to pull up these memories consciously, but I guess I have a lot of crap still buried that I need to deal with. There always seems to be more to deal with *sigh* but I’m working on it.
It appears that switching to E 2 for at least a few months is the ideal option for now. There are a lot of deep issues I need to deal with and I have to get a lot of that out of the way in order to really narrow down and concentrate on something that I feel strongly about pursuing as a long term business, though kindle publishing and copywriting do have strong merit.
When the universe gives me a sign I just have to listen. This time it was nearly four months of emotional tension that came out of nowhere right after the first cycle of BASE ended.
I thought surely running BASE for another cycle would have been the solution, but 4 months in (stage 7 for two months then stage 1 and 2 after) and the emotional tension was still hanging around.
Initially I thought it was that I wasn’t pushing past 5 figures fast enough in my traffic business. My original aim was to scale this biz into beast mode and do like my business peers who crank out $20 – 50k per month profit. I just wasn’t profiting as strongly as I had hope to by this stage of my biz, and that’s why I felt so frustrated. Or so that’s what I thought was the reason.
As stated in earlier posts though I am good at delivering traffic for my clients and I’ve made a name for myself in the industry, that’s not actually something I’m passionate about pursuing long term. In a way though I’ve profited nicely in the past 6 months, I’m slightly off course. Pursuing the copywriting biz as the next business model will help quite a bit, but there’s something deeper I need to discover, and it was that emotional tension that really helped me see this.
It’s no good to work knowing that I’m probably not in the right business for me, to feel there’s something far more fitting for my talents. That’s what was messing with my head sort of in the background for the last few months. I didn’t like thinking about it, but it was there.
There were also some feelings of questionable worthiness of some of the income I’d been accruing (which is sort of nonsense because I worked hard to get where I am), and a general lack of purpose behind work each day.
So on the 26th I switched to E 2 and the Alice in Wonderland adventure down the rabbit hole has begun.
I felt a growing sense of calmness within the first hour of listening, and within three hours it was like I should celebrate great news of achievement or something. Same day after about six hours and I feel my mouth smiling more with a serendipitous warmth all over my body, which is not how I’ve been these past 4 months. I remember a lot of moments in the past couple months, headphones on, leaning back in my office chair staring at the ceiling trying to find inspiration – trying to figure out which path or move to pursue next.
Now it just feels alright. There’s deep peace on only the second day, and that’s insane.
I know it’s not happening soon, but if BASE ever gets a facelift into 5.5/6G, holy bananas.
During a nap I had a flash back of a bunch of moments from my childhood and elementary days where I had been bullied, made fun of, or just generally embarrassed. It would take a pretty serious act of memory recall to pull up these memories consciously, but I guess I have a lot of crap still buried that I need to deal with. There always seems to be more to deal with *sigh* but I’m working on it.
It appears that switching to E 2 for at least a few months is the ideal option for now. There are a lot of deep issues I need to deal with and I have to get a lot of that out of the way in order to really narrow down and concentrate on something that I feel strongly about pursuing as a long term business, though kindle publishing and copywriting do have strong merit.
