Yeah, looks like my newly-forming abundance state was so fragile that at the first sign of doubt I got a massive avoidance reaction. But of course afterwards its all good, these reactions show me what's still not congruent. Wanting control first, then approval.
Had a dream last night: first I was going through my day and there was something related to the subliminal that made me conclude that I'm now at least 10x more vulnerable. Then I went to sleep - at my childhood home - and was awoken from that dream by two hands trying to turn me over by my neck and shoulder. At 1st I thought its my mum, but then I started getting the impression it was more like some sort of ghost or ghoul floating horizontally in the air, pulling me. She/it was saying something, but I couldn't hear what it was. Then I really woke up, but still felt the hands pulling me for a second, and had that fear in my body for a while. Kinda cool actually, afterwards. On OF 4G I once woke up with this fear that someone was in my apartment one time, but no other instances like this that I can remember.
E: Looks like I'm back in that obnoxiously happy state again. This has that same ring as the Emerson quete to me:
Had a dream last night: first I was going through my day and there was something related to the subliminal that made me conclude that I'm now at least 10x more vulnerable. Then I went to sleep - at my childhood home - and was awoken from that dream by two hands trying to turn me over by my neck and shoulder. At 1st I thought its my mum, but then I started getting the impression it was more like some sort of ghost or ghoul floating horizontally in the air, pulling me. She/it was saying something, but I couldn't hear what it was. Then I really woke up, but still felt the hands pulling me for a second, and had that fear in my body for a while. Kinda cool actually, afterwards. On OF 4G I once woke up with this fear that someone was in my apartment one time, but no other instances like this that I can remember.
E: Looks like I'm back in that obnoxiously happy state again. This has that same ring as the Emerson quete to me:
Quote:My purpose was to come back more so into the world. Coming back to the world is to me, simply behaving as though the world is miserable and difficult as most people see it.Lester Levenson. No Attachments, No Aversions
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