02-29-2016, 09:48 PM
Stage 7 day 34
This month was a lot more emotionally taxing than I expected. I suspect this is heavy resistance from this particular stage that arose during the second half of the month. This was a lot of tension, angst, frustration etc even when things were going pretty well, so it must be a lot of subconscious resistance picking up.
What was curious is that I initially attributed the feelings to one of those down cycles I sometimes have. It’s kind of funny how I can almost forget that resistance comes up when using these subs. I’ve literally been on BASE for over 7 months now and there’s still deep stuff coming up. I guess this is similar to what other 6 stage subs are like; even after a full cycle of use there can still be deep seated issues to resolve (must be even worse for BAMM – though possibly more enlightening).
Even though this current phase kind of sucks because I feel a lot of potential not being actualized right now, I see it as a huge arrow slowly behind pulled back. When released all the energy springs forward and it will be hard to stop my momentum. That’s how I see it, anyway. Who knows how accurate that image is. But I do feel big things coming and even crazier evolutions just around the corner. Which corner is that? I have no idea, but it’s coming up soon.
This month was a lot more emotionally taxing than I expected. I suspect this is heavy resistance from this particular stage that arose during the second half of the month. This was a lot of tension, angst, frustration etc even when things were going pretty well, so it must be a lot of subconscious resistance picking up.
What was curious is that I initially attributed the feelings to one of those down cycles I sometimes have. It’s kind of funny how I can almost forget that resistance comes up when using these subs. I’ve literally been on BASE for over 7 months now and there’s still deep stuff coming up. I guess this is similar to what other 6 stage subs are like; even after a full cycle of use there can still be deep seated issues to resolve (must be even worse for BAMM – though possibly more enlightening).
Even though this current phase kind of sucks because I feel a lot of potential not being actualized right now, I see it as a huge arrow slowly behind pulled back. When released all the energy springs forward and it will be hard to stop my momentum. That’s how I see it, anyway. Who knows how accurate that image is. But I do feel big things coming and even crazier evolutions just around the corner. Which corner is that? I have no idea, but it’s coming up soon.
