Positive expectations - ASC 5G

[Benjamin]

Oh interesting, I read his journal but don't remember that part.

[CatMan]

LK and Ben,

I can co-sign his view.

Recently, I've been doing OP4G and OF4G. The other day, after getting massive resistance to OP4G alone, never mind OF4G for a good week or two, I decided to drop OF4G. I will go do OF5G when done. The constant exhaustion/depression and having to sleep at least 12 hours per day was starting to seriously affect my company.

It seems, OF4G, doing at least 8 hours a day of it, along side another program, is too much. Especially if you get any kind of significant resistance to that other program. OF4G really seems to need to be a standalone program.

Ironically, OP4G is causing me WAY more resistance than OF4G. I knew this problem was bad for me, but yikes haha. Nothing 21 hours/day can't fix though lol .

[LionKing]

69 Days left of 92 Days

Has been a hell of a weekend. This sub is really pushing me. I get into these situations where previously I'd felt bored or tired, but now its like I can't hide anymore. I'm really uncomfortable in my skin and I'd just want to shout at the top of my lungs or go punch a wall or anything to get to release this pent up energy itching everywhere in my body. This is if I'm somewhere where I'm not "supposed to" be too loud, not supposed to be too fast, I should just take it easy. Very anxious. Lots of fear and tension.

Went out to see some friends as well. That was fun. Felt really nice connecting with the most confident one, and just very relaxed and expressive overall. I was much more dominant than before and held my ground very firmly when needed. All in good spirit, of course.

The next day lots and lots of tension again. Its like I have this massive column of fire that just wants to explode out of my chest, but I don't think I can let it. "I can't", "not my place" and all that. Then when I have the spotlight I'll have lots of energy but I don't quite know what to do with it; can't keep it steady, strong and directed, but its all over the place and I end up acting nervously. Again, this was in a more formal setting.

Other times I was feeling happy and making strong short eye or verbal connections with various people. Seems like I've been all over the place this weekend. Hardly got any sleep last night and.. well, not for a few night now. Overwhelm.

But I'm not tired. Or today I was really tired, but.. its different. Its less depressed-apathetic tired and more like too-pumped-to-sleep tired.

OGSF 5G is looking really good. I'm unveiling so much fear that it feels like that should be the way to go. But honestly I'm a little addicted to ASC at this point. Though I feel trapped with all these barriers and anxiety, I haven't felt this alive for a while. And influential. Let's just say my girl's going to have a memorable experience the next time I see her.

[Jamie23445]

Hey there Lionking Looks like your having mint results with ASC how did your run with OF 4G go im considering giving that sub a go.

[LionKing]

Hey there Lionking Looks like your having mint results with ASC how did your run with OF 4G go im considering giving that sub a go.

Well I can't really tell you more than what's in my journal, HERE. OF and ASC I have felt influencing me the strongest, but then those are only single-stages I've tried (for more than a day or two). But I only did OF for some 14 or 15 days. Thought I might as well do WM2, but that was a wrong choice. Should've stayed on OF then.

But OF (4G or 5G) is a sub that you should run for at 3-6+ months anyway, plus users say that its too much resistance to run it with anything else, so I'd really recommend OF 5G over 4G.

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Day 30, 66 Days remaining

Seems like I've lost all the effects during these last days. Like nothing's happening and never was. Weird. I must be too tired and/or stressed. Slightly depressed. I do remember a dream from last night where I was extremely confident in a club-type setting. I'm hammering the hours in and hopefully I'll come back from this soon.

[LionKing]

Transition time, next up is OGSF 5G
http://subliminal-talk.com/thread-7177.html

[LionKing]

Interesting links (to me at least):

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/neu...confidence

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/soc...narcissism

https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles...epping-out

[Dubls]

EDIT: Oh, yes, erection were affected from day 1. They be firmer now. Upright like a soldier.

I noticed the same thing during peak confidence on AM6! Confidence and libido/erectile function is such an interesting relationship. As is shame/fear and PE.