confidence

[Shannon]

The reason you started seeking out games is that it's a sneaky attempt by your subconscious to get you to hide from things that scare you at a subconscious level. Kudos to you for overriding it. I have that problem too occasionally, so I know well what it is.

[ffaux]

Thanks Shannon.

Day 29
Back into action trying to lock down one of my initiatives for 2014 that I'm doing with a friend. We had an alignment session which basically ended up putting us in a completely new direction. It was really fruitful however because had we gone forward without this alignment we would have wasted a lot of time.

I've been doing a ton of releasing. Interesting that I've started asking myself what these phenomena (feelings or thoughts) that I spend so much time resisting, fighting, and trying to change actually are. I've started challenging my reactions to them by asking if they are real beyond the realness that I give them?

Part deux
Fucking L.O.L. I just came back from a night out and I literally could't stop giggling the whole way back. I think my brain has been filtering out the humility parts of this program because my cockiness was out of control!

I don't know if this is a calibration thing that I need to go through but I was cocky to the point of coming across insecure. I already learned my lessons about being too cocky and I've toned it back since then but there was no stopping me tonight.



No seriously.

Please.

[ffaux]

Day 30
There's something distinctly comforting in knowing what you are experiencing right now is just a transitioning phase towards a progression goal you're working towards. I find myself being totally OK with a lot of things in my life because I can shrug it off and go "Well, this is obviously something I must go through to get to where this subliminal is taking me."

I'm finding this level of acceptance really helpful but also sobering in that I'm placing my trust in the subliminal and know that no matter what it is pushing me in a certain direction that I'm choosing. Progress and growth is inevitable.

[ffaux]

Day 32
Turns out today is the last day of ASC for me; I have been counting incorrectly. I'm really looking forward to starting EPRHA tomorrow. ASC has certainly been a very interesting ride!

Signing out.